Felt stupid for all the mean things I have done which made things impossible to go back to how they were even if there were to be a miracle. Somehow, I just don't think of the consequences carefully before I do things. Thus hurting others and eventually hurting myself. Deeply regretted my actions and I hope it is not too late.
I was thinking about something. If God really exist, can someone please ask Him to stop playing tricks on me? Some friends say it's a trial but why do I have to be reminded about the unhappy events when I was already ready to move on? I guess there's nothing I can do and just hope things will become better.
Anyway, changed the song to something else to describe how I'm feeling now. This song is 1 of the songs used in Gundam Seed. Below is the translation. Although the person whom is song is dedicated for would most likely not view this blog, but I would still hope the message will be passed over somehow.
In this quiet night, I'm waiting for you During that time, your smile has faded away Now that a little time has passed, Fond memories start to resurface.
At the place where stars fall, I'm always wishing for your laughter. Even though we're apart now We can meet again, right?
From when has my smile faded this much Since it was shattered by one mistake Change only the precious things into light and* Go beyond the sky with fortitude.
To the place where stars fall, I want my thoughts to reach you. I am always by your side Since I will embrace that coldness. Even though we're apart now, We will definitely be back together.
In the quiet night...
10:30 PM ; smile'
thePROFILE;
People don't know me like they think they do
theLOVE;
Still her
theHATE;
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theWISH;
World Peace
We will never be separated
Do well in studies for both of us
Maybe I still want to try NTT?
