lol... she's acting like Tenma Chan... or is it that she's like that?
10:07 PM ; smile'
Monday, July 16, 2007
Field of Hope (English)
10:02 PM ; smile'
Beneath the veil of starry sky As cold as winters darkest night It’s there you’ll sleep, silent in me You're all alone
A single prayers soft melody Has crossed the lonely silent fields A little light begins to shine, it shines on and on
I watched you as you so peacefully dreamed You laughed like a child, happy and care free It’s so familiar and yet so far, that the future is promised For you and me
One day on a green and shining morn One day we will finally make it through 'Cause in this sky, so dark with winter We still have to believe that it’s true Fields of hope Fields of hope Fields of hope
Block test finally over... didn't really prepare myself well for block test... as from my results, i should "wake up" and start intensive mugging... haha... during math paper, i actually blanked out... as in i forgot all formulae right at the start... i didn't even remember to use the formulae booklet... knew that i would flunk while doing the paper... GP was no better... out of the 12 questions, there was none that i was able to do and Mr Ganesh told us that there will be at least 1 question on environment and it turned out to be none... so i just chose whichever i think i could do... halfway while writing, i ran out of points so i changed to another question... wrote less than 600 i think but at least more than the minimum of 500 words... well, the only 3 people (including me) did the question i did... it certainly demoralised me... well paper 2 was a lot worse... i didn't understand the questions and neither was i able to grasp the essence of the passage... sad to say, i think i'll get 'U' for GP... Physics is another sad case... the front parts were quite easy for me and according to Kenneth, there was 1 question which i got 10/10 =D... i supposed its on Kinematics cause that's what i usually score in and it was taught by Mr Leong during bridging last year... but nevertheless, i was still not very good at resolving vectors especially for forces and moments... got 'S' grade... what to expect when i didn't do about 20 marks worthed of questions? the upthrust question wasted a lot of my time and the teacher told me to "just use whatever is given" and it turned out to be question error... (wonder why no one else asked) kenneth told me that by using any, i'll still get 1 mark.. but 1 mark can't help me pass... but looking at the larger picture, i'll be like .35 marks for overall final year grade... Chemistry was the most saddening case... i thought i could get an 'A' but i got 'C'... 1 more mark to 'B' but i still can't source that out... haiz... Geography was taken in the new seminar room... the venue was so hot that i couldn't even force myself to start writing when we were supposed to begin... some of us were busy cooling ourselves than writing... lol... a trip to the washroom during the paper made me realised that 1 of the cooling thingy was not on and it's probably my test venue... (the air from the air conditioner was warm...) the questions all looked so familiar yet i was unable to get myself off the heat... i think i'll get at most a 'S' grade...
Rest and Relax after block test? No!!! preparation for nationals school shoot... same old routine everyday except for weekends and monday.) well, monday was rest and relax day cause the range is closed every monday... and as it's also youth day, some of us went to Eric's house... (for more info, visit the other's blogs... i'm too lazy to elaborate... =P)
I will never give out flyers unless really needed from now on... had a very bad experience... can ask Kenneth... *sigh*
Somehow i still can't improve on major problem i encounter during all my shoots... my shots still tend to shift towards the left and i'm always unable to aim back the same spot... i always aim either too high or too low...
Shouldn't have listened to Kenneth and went to help the rifle girls... the wait caused me to become more mentally unstable... well, i just can't sit still and stone... but nevertheless, at least i helped to make things better cause of some miscommunications... we were given wrong detailing information and we became panicky... at least my brute strength came in useful when transporting the equipments to the range... Yu Jo was supposed to be 1st detail instead of Nataline and we were left like 8 minutes of so before the event starts... it was so chaotic for us... our school's shooters probably were mentally affected... their scores were like far from their usual best score...
and my event started at 10+... i wasn't 'mentally stable' and i just couldn't focus somehow... i don't even know why i'm so nervous... it never happened before in my previous competitions... i didn't feel as nervous at my very first competition (Singapore Opens) my hands were shaking and i couldn't control myself... i tried to talk to myself to calm myself down but it still didn't work... i had a 6 in every series or at least for 5 series... and a 3 or 4 for a misfire cause my hand was shaking... my sighting shots were marvellous and i was about to begin... as i always had an off shot for my first competition shot, i tried by using a sighting card... true enough, i got a 7... 2nd shot, another 7... ("what the, i have to sight again?" was what i told myself) but 3rd shot was a 10... after trying a few more shots, i got 7s and 10s... but i didn't care and just started... around my 30th shot, coach came and told me to slow down and do some dry fire... after getting the feeling back then start off again... i guess i was really fast... i did accordingly and after a few shots, i rushed again... then i tried calming myself down... at least it was better than the start... I was quite slow to use my "special move"... this "special move" allows me to have better concentration, strength, endurance, mentallity etc... however, this "special move" has it's time limit... the effect will become weaker after some time and i'll need to "cast" it again... sounds childish but it's true... my last few series was better because of my "special move"... it happened for most of the time except for the time when i first started to use in (training)... think i'll carry on training and prolong the effect to at least 2hours... haha... Coach Song told me all my problems (i expected cause i myself know) and told me how improve on it... his encouragements motivated me and he even told me to concentrate on studies and train more only when i have free time... in the end i scored 535/600 and was national 5th and zonal 1st =D... although i didn't get any award, i knew very well that i didn't really give my best... hope i'll do better next year... i'll probably go for more monthly shoot... Some unhappy events here and there... that's it...
Went for PHS Honour's night after changing... took taxi cause i didn't want to be late... cost me $7.50... and everything started at 8+... haiz... i could have just taken the MRT... NP 2 and NCC 6... BB no comments... lol... we were indeed different entities... both sides didn't really talk to the other table much... our table was the nosiest and quite rude actually... especially chocolate... haha... meal was supposed to be self-service and we basically waited till the queue was quite short... haha... we're not like some people... haha... SC people some very weird... especially the 1 who keep coming over and asked "do you all want more drinks?" well, i took 1 cup and poured the fluid into my cup then return the unused 1... quite stupid but then, save the Earth!!! then some other things which i don't want to mention here but luckily Wilson did see what i saw and took action... well he was nearer to the scene than i was and he knew more of the people around... think i'll stop here and sry for the long post and late update... do remember to tag =D
2:06 PM ; smile'
thePROFILE;
People don't know me like they think they do
theLOVE;
Still her
theHATE;
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theWISH;
World Peace
We will never be separated
Do well in studies for both of us
Maybe I still want to try NTT?
