Saturday, February 14, 2009
emo right now. and i made my best friend sad... i'm better off in a corner alone...
3:12 PM ; smile'
Sunday, February 08, 2009
update on yesterday and today, let's start with yesterday.
went to yishun polyclinic yesterday cause i'd been sick for like 3 weeks. when at around 11 and the queue was kind of bad. waited for like 1 hour and then there was announcement that the computer system was down and everything will be slowed down. talk about ill luck. so i thought i'll go to the washroom first and guess what, my number was called when i was in the washroom... so the doctor called for another patient then i realised that was my number (in another room). waited for the patient to be out b4 i went to tell the doctor i missed my queue. got in soon after and was "checked". told the doctor my cough lasted for about 2 to 3 weeks and then she gave some shocked look and told me that i need to go back and do a blood test and chest x-ray next week. the quese at the pharmacy is very long too and i didn't want to wait cause i had an appointment. haha. so left polyclinic at aorund 1? reached home and was going to prepare to go off but then my brother's going to send my sister to school so i decided to take a lift to the mrt station. reached 1st destination at 3+ and then went to bugis. panda was already at bugis when i was waiting for ember. went to a few places and i don't have concession T.T
well, went back to bugis eventually for Jubeat before going for movie. the movie was like "it won't happen in reality". at least that was what i thought. it'll be great if that happened. haha. and well, the most attractive part was the 5 "did i mention i was struck by lightning 7 times? 1 was... ...". the 6th was near the credits and i was wondering if the 7th will be after the credits. lol.
went to n.y.d.c for dinner and i saw a sec school schoolmate. haha. i ordered pizza and once again, i almost cleared the cheese powder. haha. the 3 of them were like, treating me as a freak. haha. but that's like "what's new" if Kenneth was around. haha. he'll be like "even after the GST, the shop still lose money". maybe i shouldn't mention anymore. haha. :P
went back and i had sudden mood change. haiz... let's skip this part too and come to whatever happened today.
went for monthly shoot and was doing kind of ok when i shot 5 T.T if not my PB would have been higher not to forget that the shot got me distracted and i got quite a number of 8s thereafter. i still have problem with the sudden shift of the sights. caused me at least 2 shots on 8. haiz... oh well, wait till i get my own weapon. wanted to leave b4 the results are out but then i stayed to help out. that's me, always like that... took quite some time b4 everything was over and we had to like finish eating everything b4 the results are announced? i got 2nd anyway and score was 554. it's like, the last time i touched air pistol was SSA monthly shoot. haha. and i'm using a LP2. took our vouchers and went to exchange lots of drinks. i got a yoko yoko for muscle aches. haha. oh well, after putting the drinks in pantry, we left and went to causeway point cause i wanted to look for presents. went to comics connection on my own while golden and panda went to the arcade. bought nothing. left and headed home. but i dropped by popular for stationaries and then cyberactive to look at PC mouse. didn't buy anything too since i didn't bring lots of cash out. then left for home.
still dunno what to get for my best friend. haiz. and my best friend didn't want me to get anything. another whirlpool again. haha.
3:45 PM ; smile'
what happens when you get emo? like what would you be thinking?
I'm:
stupid?
silly?
such a fool?
idoitic?
hesitate?
timid?
useless?
oh well, maybe stone and space out? i dunno. kind of stupid to just stone all of a sudden. and i did exactly last night on my way home for dunno what reason. kind of dumb. probably what we know as mood swing? oh well, have not been "myself" since last week. always getting people to become concerned and spoil their mood. lots of stuff flying around in my mind. sometimes there's so much that i dun even know if i'm thinking of anything. lots of why. i'm probably more suited to be a scientist. why do i feel this way? why does these happen? why this? why that? it's getting on my nerves. wonder why i can't stop myself from thinking of things. and it's not like i was able to use this to think for academic of more useful stuff. and this is 1 of the causes that make it difficult for me to sleep at night. haiz.
i hope my best friend will always be happy and will never experience any harm. i guess i'm just kind of weird. never really seen anyone else who does things exactly or nearly like me. haiz... time to sleep, monthly shoot later... hope i can get at least 550. haha. after so long of no training?Labels: emo?
12:26 AM ; smile'
Sunday, February 01, 2009
30 Jan 09
went down to the shooting range wanting to train for SSA monthly shoot but i forgot that NUS had full range booking. luckily i was there to sign up for HomeTeamNS monthly shoot as well so not a wasted trip :P. saw coach while i was walking to the entrance but she didn't saw me. i walked over to her car and greeted her. she was kind of shocked cause she told me i didn't have to go over to the range. explained to her that i was there to sign up for monthly shoot so we headed for the range. saw Mr Tay and 2 other YJcians and we started talking so coach went over to her office to settle some stuff i think. then saw coach ho walking out probably going for dinner or something. then coach asked me to help load the stuff into her car but then i have yet to sign up for monthly shoot but "da ge" was so busy that i had to wait. haha. helped to carry Jeannel's stuff down to coach's car. and at that time, i went down with coach (i was supposed to be down first) cause i had to wait for the lift cause i wasn't seen walking over by the IJ students i think. so loaded everything up and then headed down to safra. i was in Mr Tay's car on the way to safra. sort of a free ride home. haha. helped to shift IJ's stuff cause they were kind of short-handed and so coach shifted Jeannel's stuff instead. probabaly cause it was lighter :P but i didn't mind la. coach had to settle other paper work as well ma. after storing everything, i went back home. went to the private clinic since polyclinic closes at 1630 (if i'm not wrong) and i can't make it the following day cause of monthly shoot and some other reasons. returned home for dinner then took medication from the private clinic. went online to do some stuff which i couldn't remember before i went to sleep. i think i went off at 12+
31 Jan 09
monthly shoot today and i woke up at around 6am. my alarm clock was set to 7am though. so laze until 7am actually. didn't really sleep. got fed up so might as well wake up and do some stuff. mum went to buy breakfast and so, i had prata without curry for breakfast cause i was still coughing. Jeannel came and i actually told her i would go down to help her with her stuff. but then i was too late :( she was in the lift i was waiting for. probably service lag or something so i received her sms kind of late (saw a car when i stepped out of house). saw Jeannel's dad in the lift and he look friendly :) didn't get to talk much (cause my old problem came out of it's hiding place). nothing much at home to entertain Jeannel actually so i asked her if she wanted to play pets society. haha. there were unlucky incidents during her hurdle races. sometime later, panda came and i was kind of shock cause my brother left house and suddenly panda came in. lol. then after a while more, my brother brought his friend home and i was still shocked. haha. my brother and his friend left then sometime later, "my party" left as well. we were like deciding where to have lunch for a long long time. more of me asking since friday. lol. ended up at BK for lunch. panda and i bought regular meals. mine was mushroom swiss and his bbq turkey bacon. Jeannel got chicken tenders, lemon tea (i think) and hersheys sundae pie. Jeannel was like, 'sick liao don't eat so much fries'. then there goes 1... 2... and so on... haha. but i didn't mind. somehow she ended up taking from panda. haha. so i just finished whatever i had :P was like very hungry and the ice lemon tea was somehow super nice. maybe it had been a long time since i tasted lemon tea. haha. then after that we went to comics connection. actually more of like i requested to go there. haha. got myself a supposed to be vongola ring necklace (for collection) and wanted to get like something else and after thorough examination, it turned out to be postcards... so i didn't get them. like a few postards for $13?! panda and Jeannel actually left while i was still examining the postcards. lol. then they came back to look for me. i decided just to get the necklace, paid, then left for safra. haha. i hate myself for always sweating... haiz... we were quite early and golden was busy with work. we just slacked around and Jeannel and panda fell asleep so i was left awake. haha. got to be 'on guard' too. haha. after some time, coach came and saw us and asked why i didn't go and look for her. haha. cause of the grip she's lending me actually. i'll be borrowing it till my own 1 arrives. guess what, the pistol i loan was used by someone else so i had no choice but to randomly use another 1. the sighting of it was like so low that my first sighting shot was nowhere on the target. sighted for like 20mins cause i didn't have a screwdriver and had to use my "fingernails" to sight =.= the rear sight "jerks" whenever i sight and i don't understand why either. thought LP2s are like that. the most stupid thing was whenever i sight the weapon upwards, it goes right as well. i ended up getting a curve =.= ln graph i think. (kind of forgotten)
the first half of my series were usually better and this time round, my last series was the worst. extreme opposite of how it usually was. T.T this is like the first time after so long, i managed to get less than 545 T.T peng was going to get me out to think through the mistakes but then, that was my last shot. lol. was first to finish although i was slower than usual. haha. and panda didn't seem to be doing well too... haha. well, treating it as an experience and training. stupid cough.... next month, i'm gonna shoot at least 550!!! but then again, i don't really have much training time. haiz. and i wasn't using my shooting specs. forgot to bring them despite constant reminders from Jeannel back at home. haha.
talked to coach about the shoot and the problem i had with my weapon. then kept the weapon and we left safra to orchard to find the book for Jeannel. luckily we went even though info from the bookstore which panda got was like "out of stock" =.= in fact, there was still a copy of it. haha. Thankfully it was there. so happy for Jeannel too. haha. headed off to cine to walk walk. panda and Jeannel played some drum games and then i received a phone call from my mum asking me to leave. like go over to where they are and i had to part with Jeannel and panda though i was kind of relunctant as well. but well, no choice. they were so nice to offer their time to walk with me to the MRT station and change their dining venue to toa payoh. i took the train all the way to jurong east, changed bus and reached my destination at around 10pm.
my godbrother was going back to England for work so we went there to like send him off? also like reunion dinner like that. chatted with them a little cause time wasn't on our side (i was 3hrs late). went to the airport and had drinks there. i should have gotten myself other drinks than hot chocolate. i though hot chocolate is usually sweet but mine wasn't probably due to me being sick, i couldn't get the real taste of it? bidded farewell and then left home. online till like 3am (i slept in the car on the way back).
Mum talked to me about relationships and stuff and i'm like "like i'll ever be attached. as in go into a relation" but i didn't say. she asked "are you going to just be like 'ok lor' if there's someone who likes you?" and i was thinking of "like that will ever happen". haha. then she asked what i'm looking for and my reply was "when the time comes then i decide and think through about it" haha. can't really remember the order of the questions. haha. i guess i will never have that kind of worry. haha.
1 Feb 09
woke up quite early but force myself back to sleep. else i'll be like only slept for 3 or 4 hrs. regretted though. still have things i needed to do. came online at 9+ made my own breakfast and took medication. sometimes my cough is ok and sometimes it's not. i wonder why. haiz... anyway, Jeannel will be coming over to take her luggage to safra for her monthly shoot. i'll be accompanying her down. yup. so i'm in-charge of her safety, the safety of her property, as well as the transportation of her property :P haha. time to start packing and polish my boots. haha. maybe after lunch. haha.
I miss my best friend a lot. almost all the time. haha. hope my best friend will be alright all the time especially during times i couldn't be present. :(
12:12 PM ; smile'
