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Sunday, May 24, 2009

NEW PB FOR TODAY!!! 558. haha. at SAFRA somemore, away grounds. haha. only if the 7s were 9s, i would have got my first 564 or more. haha.

hands were super itchy cause of mosquito bites and the back of my neck too. luckily for most of them i stopped to scratch instead of try to fire off. those that i tried to fire off got either 7 or 8. haha. guess what, i took 1hr+ for my competition. haha. Cherlyn was like saying i shoot very fast but she have not seen how fast i can go. but that was in the past. learnt something new today, but come to think of it, i think i did it b4 but can't reproduce it anymore. it's like going into hyper dying will mode. lol. was kind of like i could control it so many it's my version of zero point breakthrough. haha.

got serious headache after the shoot. dunno why. still having it. think i'll go sleep now. haha. other stuff i'll just omit. nothing much anyway. felt really depressed today too. partially due to 1 month's shoot being wasted. haha. and many other stuff. i hope i still have enough time to do whatever i want and whatever i need to.

11:28 PM ; smile'

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

stupid msn, i can't sign in...

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Tuesday, May 19, 2009

ok, started work today but did only the basics. got lots more to learn. hope i can learn quickly with my super poor memory. haha. anyway, training today is super screwed even though some of my shots were like super good. the "auto-focus" of my eyes went haywire earlier on. there are groupings i tot i screwed up completely and it turned out to be very good. i think 1 of it had 99 points. haha. gotta check again tomorrow. haha. then for series i thought was good, it sucks totally but the grouping is still ok. haha. dunno what's happening. i need enlightenment. lol. alright, time to head to bed or it'll be coffee tomorrow. haha.

11:41 PM ; smile'

Monday, May 18, 2009

oh ya, forgot to mention that i came across some stuff which i decided to get them as Christmas present. haha. didn't specially get them but then there's no occasion to give right? so they'll have to wait in 'store' till Christmas. haha. hope i'll get to see the receipient. like that more sincerity ma. shall not disclose anything about it. :P

today... erm... dunno what to say la. but at least today is one of the better days. hope i can take off on either 11 or 12 june for NUSIS. at least they'll allow me to take leave. alright. time to prepare myself mentally for "hell" starting tomorrow. somehow i'm still hoping for the same thing which i shouldn't. stupid right? haha. i need a miracle... no wait... i need unlimited amount of miracles... haha... oops, kind of greedy. saw a friend's blog post today which reminds me that i had always wanted to create a time machine many years ago. sounds old right? haha. but i wanted to after watching some show or movie that has something to do with time travel. yup.

8:23 PM ; smile'

Sunday, May 17, 2009

watched Angels & Demons (whatever it is) yesterday and it's nice, suspense and all. been quite a long time since i last watched a movie. haha. well, before the movie, went with da ge and peng to safra cause da ge was going down to train. then a while at safra, i agreed to watch the movie la. haha. as long as the others don't mind. haha. well, peng and i went to a coffee shop somewhere to have our dinner. peng ate a bit only. haha. maybe i should start dieting too. lol. anyway, we went GV after dinner to get the tickets and peng's ex-student was there. haha. she didn't recognise her and neither did i. ok la, i don't go down to range to see who's there. at most is see who're the better pistol shooters. regretted somehow. should have noticed more people. haha. if not see already also dunno they were there. after getting the tickets, we went back to range and then later peng said "da ma" will be joining us so we went back to get another ticket. lol. and that ticket was like the last 1 in our row. then was like later boss say she's coming then how? haha. anyway, peng and i went to play time crisis 4 and 3 in GV. then later da ma came and peng left with her to bk after "dying". i continued a while longer and lost also. no time limit. haha. finished all the extra weapons. haha. then went to join them later. as usual, my mouth jammed and i didn't talk much. da ma was like asking me to share the fries but i declined as usual. then later peng asked me to help finish 2 of her mexican drumlets. i did. cause da ma didn't want either. don't waste food ma. then was like saying hometeam shooters must be able to eat a lot 1. haha. cause da ge and friend can eat a lot. haha. then later da ma asked me to finish the fries for her. and i did. haha. got to upgrade my denying skills in future. maybe soon. haha. if not, i'll be jammed with work.

then later we went up and da ma bought cup corn for me. haha. so paiseh la. haha. then while inside, our seats were taken and peng agreed to take over their seats like 2 rows back. then later da ge came in and was, i think, a little shocked? cause we were not there and seats taken. haha. then we waved to him la. he bought nachos combo and asked me if i wanted but i declined. he haven eat dinner ma. then i ask him why he bought that instead of popcorn cause nachos can't last through the show. haha. then he said "cause it's nicer". haha. then he asked back why i had cupcorn, also can't last long through the show. haha. i didn't tell him da ma treated me to it la. haha.

ok, no spoilers here :P

then after the movie, da ge drove peng and i back to our respective homes. and i was first to alight. haha. my house nearby ma. haha.

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ok, now for today. didn't really happen much. haha. couldn't find the phone protective cover for my phone. haiz. anyway, went to west mall and i bought something which i could use as present in future. :P not going to say what. haha. gotta go back to course tomorrow and back to office on tuesday. hope i'll survive in office. got to sleep as early as possible or drink coffee like water. haha. been heaty recently. gotta top another 1L into me later. haha.

memory is like getting worse by the day. i'm getting old. haha. hope i can forget things i should forget and not things that i should remember. haha. and i hate my super easy to flush face. haha.

9:23 PM ; smile'

Thursday, May 14, 2009

NS is driving me crazy. haha. but then perhaps it's just that i'm having a very negative mindset? well, maybe i should use Hibari's motto. whatever it is, it's something like nothing shall restrain my will. haha. so maybe i should use my dying will and work to the EXTREME until i ORD.

i hate lunch cause i'll be having it alone. it's not the company but more of the problem of finding seats. got to wake up at 5+ every morning. sleep at 11+ every night. Coffee is definately going to be like water to me soon.

getting emotional sometimes and this is really bad. and i shouldn't be holding onto things that are impossible. it's useless cause things never go my way. haha. shall not mention too much. maybe in somewhere else this weekend or something... haha.

alright, got to sleep soon. ciao ciao...

10:53 PM ; smile'

Monday, May 11, 2009

got to go for another 5 days of training in HTA. posting is bad too. got nothing to say. hope it won't affect my shooting and hope i can get leave for NUSIS if it so happened that i need to.

been thinking of stuff, people etc. feeling kind of dumb doing these. there's seriously no point thinking of all these stuff but i can't help.

deciding between E63 and E71. probably get E63.

hopefully i don't transfer into IMH cause of work.

9:35 PM ; smile'

Saturday, May 09, 2009

POP finally over. got to wait till i'm posted out. anyway, my luck was really bad on friday. probably not going to talk about it. haha. been lots of time wasting and extreme suay-ness. got a locker at HTNS range, got myself 1 tin of R10 and pellet box though i never thought i'll be using it before. thing it safe more time during training. HTNS is not sending any team for NUSIS. WTH!!! was prepared to join as individual ($50) but then Coach Nigel and Coach Ho decided to join in as team. haha. quite a strong team and i'm the lagger. haha. hope i can bring up my average back to at least 555 in 1 month. probably going to train 6days a week. at least 4 la. haha. provided my workload is not heavy and there's no OT. so the $50 became $30. haha. and hope i can do part-time to earn more allowance to buy 1 LP10 and also R10 pellets etc. haha. gonna participate in all SSA monthly shoot from this month onwards.

been trying to slow down my shooting speed but then the outcome is about the same as me going at high speed. going to shoot slow speed tomorrow as long as my heel doesn't hurt. slow speed means more lag time in between shots so i don't overstrain myself. haha.

4:44 PM ; smile'

Sunday, May 03, 2009

going back in real soon. hope i won't get involved in anything. haha. POP is coming soon la... dun want to get into any kind of trouble.

anyway, i might be giving up on something cause of my arm. if it doesn't recover by next month, i might just do so. wonder if it's due to a lack of calcium or overloading of calcium. lol. anyway, still pondering about it. only if some special people persuade me. haha. but that is still after the decision is being made. maybe it's time for me to start slowing certain things down so i wouldn't strain it too much.

that's all for now. many things bothering me dunno who i can talk to. dun wanna disturb others when they have their own things too. haiz...

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Saturday, May 02, 2009

hmm, let's see. left for training today and was there quite late. reached hours later from the time i said i would be there. seldom see uncle Jimmy around these days. wonder if he's still working at the range or enjoying his life already =D haha. hope he is. anyway, NPSC was there having their monthly shoot and Jeannel smsed me to go help collect cards. but then i was so late, by the time i reached, the event was about to end. was caught up with some housework and all at home before i left. trained for about 1 hour but the pain in my elbow came at around my 40th shot. several very off shots cause of the pain being over my limit. sometimes it's a little sharp. gonna try again tomorrow if i have time. probably cause i strained it too much. cause of POP rehearsal i guess. exerted too much force. few days ago the problem came too during 1 of the POP drill rehearsals. haiz...

anyway, went with the NP guys and Jeannel out for lunch at Oasis. bought food from char-grilled... whatever it's called. anyway, the food there... hmm, quite ok and it's filling. haha. gotta start working out once i get to change equipments. uniform and stuff. didn't really chat with them much cause i don't really know them, no intro, nothing. oh well, nvm. haha. (Hibari: "only the weak flock together in groups") just kidding, been doing things alone for a long time in the past. so i think that changed me a little. then went back home after lunch.

mum's arm isn't in good condition. it's all due to over straining it for long periods of time. gotta help mum do housework from now on. only if i'd started much earlier. things might have been better. hope she'll recover soon and the doctor would have time for the operation (i think). at least solve the problem.

helped mum with cooking today. i should have cooked once in a while. i'm all clumsy now. haha. cause flip the food stuff as easily as i did in the past. think that's all for now. can't think of anything else now. ciao ciao

11:13 PM ; smile'