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Tuesday, April 01, 2008

人参苦，人生更苦。。。 4 block test results are out already... and all are 'U's... need to wake up and clear my mind of all the nonsense soon... even if they are not nonsense, it's not for me to bother anymore... doing so much things will not get recognition, i'll only get time not spent on my studies that's all... suppose i have done enough already... i'm not gonna care anymore even if it's worrying me... seeing no point in doing so much... was trying to settle so many stuff but yet it all just seemed to be my fault... i'm not having holidays now and i have to settle all these... and on top of that, it's my 'A' Level year... once failed considered gone...

everyday reach home late... need the time to finish homework but i spent it all on these stuff and all i get in return is yuan yan, yuan yan and more yuan yan...

finally submitted PWS 27 and tutorial 8.2... need to complete 8.3, thermochem tutorial and A.C circuit tutorial today... still have GP essay to complete... 11+ now lah...

celebrated Feb to April 4th ppl's birthday today... Don't really have the atmosphere but it's the thought that count... problem is we had to stuff ourself with so much food... haha... some ppl didn't really cooperate so only left a few of us eating as much as we can... haha...

math night lecture today... 3 hrs "break" before the lesson... was at area outside bookshop cause Jolene wanted to photocopy Chem tutorial questions i think. zul and cas were there as well... they took photos of the cake and themselves... haha... i was asked as well but sorry, just couldn't smile... anyway, can send it to me so i can see how awful i look? haha... was then waiting for some classmates to decide whether they want to go for the night lesson or not... after quite some time then it was decided that some of us go and see how effective the night lesson was... if it's beneficial then they'll go for subsequent sessions... went canteen to do GP essay with Jolene and Zul... most of the time was spent chatting though i did the GP essay and chatted at the same time... lol... was raining at around 6pm so i didn't want to go out for dinner... asked cas to buy for me though while i stayed to rush the essay... forgot a lot of the examples i wanted to include... haha... heard from someone that he/she heard that the lecture will only start at 7.15pm... then at 7pm, Guo Dong came running over to tell us lecture already started... was so shocked... haha... and my dinner had not arrived... left concluding paragraph lor... haiz... but no choice...
went in audi for the lecture... dan, zx and cas went in in the middle of it with dan holding on to my 2 double cheeseburger and sm's apple pie... i did eat in the audi though... haha... waited till the break at around 8.20 b4 i went for quick bites... ate too fast and had hiccups... lol... the lecture lasted till about 9.10pm but not all the components were talked abt... wasn't able to focus throughout the lesson... been a long day...

Reached home and have to settle CCA stuff again... gotta go do homework now... tomorrow need to settle CCA CIP and other CCA affairs... LORD, please grant me strength and walk with me through these and the many other obstacles and challenges you gave me... Feel like giving up on hope already but...

11:33 PM ; smile'