A few days have past and it's time to update my blog. Will be omitting some stuff though. Anyways, got into a quarrel with my wife quite frequently the past few weeks but everything turn out ok now and hopefully it'll stay as it is. :)
I have decided to stay in hall during my uni education. that way, i will not be tempted to visit my wife after she ends school or keep trying to ask her out since most of the time i will not be near her. However, I am willing to travel that long distance over just to meet her if she wants to. :)
I recall one of my teachers (I think it was my ex-CT) saying this "separation make the heart gets closer" or something along that line. Meaning to say a short period of separation get the couple loving and cherishing each other more because they get to feel how it is like without the other half around (which is unbearable). Whether or not it applies to only me or to the both of us, I hope by the end of this separation period, we will get closer. By then, I will have a surprise for you :)
I will do my homework everyday. If 1 day I didn't submit my homework, something bad could have happened. :(
After the estimated 7 years, I want to hold your hand and walk with you forever, down the path of our lives.
But for now, It is to work hard, get a good degree, get a good job with good pay, get a good house, get a good wife(you are already my good wife) and enjoy a good future. :)
No more gaming... so now there are only 3 things, you, school work, cca(for hall points).
I want to dream forever with you
Following the happy breeze, beneath that bright sky that blinds me Beautiful melodies and fresh air fills this road that I’m walking with you Do you remember? Those awkward and unfamiliar times when we first met I’m thankful to you for silently taking care of me when I was hesitant and young
My exhausted heart beats once again My weak heart has found light again I want to hold your hand and walk like this forever Together with the person I love in a world just for the two of us
Those unforgettable memories during that long time Throughout the laughter and the tears, the one who always believed in me was you
My exhausted heart beats once again My weak heart has found light again I want to hold your hand and walk like this forever Together with the person I love in a world just for the two of us
No one will bother us There’s not even a reason to waste any time (Sometimes) We could be far from each other (With the same heart) The same heart as one, dreaming the same dream
Even if a very long time passes (A long time passes) Even if you and I become a bit different (A bit different) I want to dream forever with you like this The one who fulfilled my wishes, the one who became my faith, with you
Even if a very long time passes (A long time passes) Even if you and I become a bit different (A bit different) I want to dream forever with you like this The one who became my miracle, the one who dreamed with me, with you
Even a long time passes, I want to dream forever with you
12:57 PM ; smile'
Wednesday, June 08, 2011
Skipping to the song "Mistake". There was once I saw this question asked in a Hong Kong drama. "Does he love me more or am I the one loving him more? Come to think of it, I was the one who initiated and asked him out. I suppose I love him more?". When I saw this question, I started to ask myself as well. Although it wasn't me who initiated asking her out, I liked her first. My thought was, does it matter who love who more? Although I suppose it will be tougher for the 1 who loved the other more, but then, if that person gives up so easily, just how much value is their love?
Maybe I wasn't doing enough to make you love me more? Maybe it's my fault for loving you more than you love me such that I am taken for granted? Maybe I shouldn't be asking too much, asking for you to love me the same as I love you. It does hurt whenever you reply with a smiley knowing that I am hurt/upset. Even though your words may have varied from the initial promise, I still believe in the 1 you made during those early days. This song describes how I feel this morning and perhaps a few days ago.
No matter how bad things are, I still love you. I don't want to let you go and I can't do that.
In ( "Name" ) are the parts sang by whichever member.
(Jessica) I’m still at the same place I’m weary from wandering by your side (Seohyun) Even today, as I was wandering Day has passed again and again Now I’m here (Sooyoung) You know. You know that my heart is hurting (Yoona) Watching you laugh/smile makes my heart ache more
(All) It’s my mistake for not making you love me more It’s my mistake for loving you more than you loved me It’s my mistake for not making you love me as much as I wanted you to…
(Taeyeon) How much longer must I cry? As I’m trusting that promise/I’m only trusting/ believing that promise (Sunny) You lied to me to wait for you Even my greedy side (for his love) has grown weary/tired (Hyoyeon) You know. You know that my heart is hurting/aching (Tiffany) You can’t just ignore and laugh/smile like that
It’s my mistake for not making you love me more It’s my mistake for loving you more than (you love/like me? This is my assumption ) It’s my mistake for not making you love me as much as I wanted you to.
(Yuri) I knew I couldn’t have you (Sica) But my heart (my love for you) just kept growing (Taeyeon) It’s my mistake for, Waiting by myself Regretting by myself Loving you
(All) Even though my heart was hurting/aching It’s my mistake for not letting you go/forgetting you
(Taeyeon) I’m such a fool I knew I would get hurt and couldn’t let go
Seohyun – it’s my mistake (Sunny) Even though it could be all my fault/mistake That’s ok. As long as you’re there… (Tiffany) Always… (Taeyeon) Please forgive me for being like this (Forgive the person) Who loved you”
11:59 PM ; smile'
Tuesday, June 07, 2011
Yesterday was the day which was the most fearful day for me. There were many scenarios which I hoped would never happened. If those were to happen, I do not know what to do.
The second song is "If" (만약에), sang by Korean singer Kim Taeyeon from Girls' Generation. 1 of the few songs which drew me closer to liking the group's music.
Maybe it's because of past experience which built up this fear in me. I'll just skip the recap cause I really don't want to recall the bad experiences.
I hope that this time round, it's not because of being useful that I managed to be in my current status. All the past experiences had also resulted in a lot of fears for doing other stuff which I shall not say. People who are closer to me will know what I'm talking about.
Not everything relates to my thoughts but to some extent it is. Most importantly, I am afraid of you drifting apart and away from me. Even the thought itself is scary. =(
Anyway, this song is also the 1 which Solomon was looking for when we went went to Kbox.
If I go, if I go closer to you I wonder what you may think, I can’t drum up the courage
If you go, if you go away from me It is scary to figure out how to let you go
Perhaps, the reason I only look at you, like a fool, is for fear that you may turn your face away, and you and I may drift further apart
Perhaps, the reason I can’t say ‘I love you’, like a fool, is that I am afraid of the painful sad days of waiting after we meet.
If you come, if you come closer to me I really don’t know what to do
Perhaps, the reason I only look at you, like a fool, is for fear that you may turn your face away, and you and I may drift further apart
Perhaps, the reason I can’t say ‘I love you’, like a fool, is that I am afraid of the painful sad days of waiting after we meet.
Perhaps, the reason I can’t say ‘I love you’, like a fool, is that I am afraid of the painful sad days of waiting after we meet.
5:53 PM ; smile'
Sunday, June 05, 2011
There was a very special day. The day where I no longer felt alone. The day I felt I needed and was needed. That date will be a secret which only we know and that is when you became my everything to me. This revival post is dedicated to you. ^^ The lyrics of this song reads out how I feel. Maybe not exactly everything but I'm sure you know which are the main parts that is truly my thoughts and feeling. The reason why I chose this blogskin is because I want to make you smile but not by force. I am sorry for the days where I wasn't able to do so and for the days I made you angry and/or upset.
Wherever you are hiding in the world I can find you, I can find you If you didn’t exist, if you didn’t exist My heart would stop beating
Even if you say you don’t love me I can feel with my heart If you are here, if you are here I don’t need anything
You are my everything to me, You are my everything to me Please shine like a star in the sky You are my only love, Forever my only love We love each other, so all I need is you
Can it be compared with anything else? Can it be exchanged with anything else? Your love, your heart Who can replace you?
You are my everything to me, You are my everything to me Please shine like a star in the sky You are my only love, Forever my only love We love each other, so all I need is you
We will never be separated Anything that will hurt you Nothing can cause tears to fall
You are my everything to me, You are my everything to me Let’s not change, even as time passes You are my only love, Forever my only love We love each other, in a place without sadness
1:34 PM ; smile'
thePROFILE;
People don't know me like they think they do
theLOVE;
Still her
theHATE;
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theWISH;
World Peace
We will never be separated
Do well in studies for both of us
Maybe I still want to try NTT?
