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Wednesday, November 22, 2006

Been some time already. Well, Thank God that i'm provisionally advanced. Meaning i have to take another promos when school reopens lah. and must pass...

Thank God for many other things. like giving me the strength to continue with both the flyer distribution as well as the fund-raising activities. I was sick lah... sweated like nobody's business... Hopefully I did not pass the virus to anyone.

Thank God too and Uncle Morgan, and Mr Tan for Monday. That day I had to go back to PHS to take the cadets for Taiwanese Drills training. Thank Mr Tan for understanding that I am not able to last through the whole session and agreed to allow me to give early dismissal. He told me that I don't look well also. Then I received a call from Uncle Morgan. (I smsed him earlier in the morning telling him that i was sick and might not be able to work.) I told him about my condition and since he asked where I was, I told him lah. And he offered to drive me to the polyclinic. Unfortunately, the queue was so long and I started to doubt especially when they keep jumping away from my queue number especially at the pharmacy. I was the next and they jumped... But thinking on the other side, maybe God is trying to tell me that I shouldn't go to work probably because my condition might worsen/I might not be able to take it/(worst) I'll spread the virus.
I felt guilty also cause I think he arranged it such that I would be able to get the place but then, first day of work i got MC... And i was blur enough to not ask the doctor whether I was suitable for work and i didn't ask abt my body temperature. Thank Uncle Morgan for letting me rest but I still felt very guilty.

Tuesday science research was suppose to be 1 whole day. Thank God that my teacher was willing to let us leave early. I was so foolish to get fast-food for lunch. I shouldn't have gotten the cold drink lah... It some how made me feel worse. (dun want to waste so just finish it all) Then slept at abt 3+. first time woke up (i forgot why) second time cause Uncle Morgan Called. I didn't manage to answer the call. Was so tired that i didn't call back. third time was the alarm i've set. But again, i was tired and went back to sleep. Unfortunately, I overslept and was late for prayer meeting. Today I finally felt how it's like to be overwhelmed by the Holy Spirit or should i rephrase. However, maybe it's the first time and i dunno what to do lah. I didn't lose conscienceness though. there are many things i'm uncertain of. like: what should i be thinking of, how it should be like, am I ready?, when is it right that i should be 'awaken'?
After the feeling was gone, I 'woke' up. if not then stay there until tomorrow meh? Didn't have any enlightenment or such but i have a lot of burning questions.

Few days ago (or weeks), I seemed to hear voices and i know it's not me cause i was thinking abt some stuff and the voice came. It came in two different occasions. cause i was having quiet time. Was off-track also i think cause i began to other stuff. Maybe that's already like talking to God?
Back to the subject, even though i heard the voice, I wasn't used to it so i somehow like "Huh, what?" and the voice didn't return and the sentence wasn't even complete. both occasions also the same. maybe is i really off-track till i fell asleep? i also dunno. hmm...

4:55 PM ; smile'