For Freedom And Justice

Update (Hall Camp)

2011-08-07T21:29:00.000+08:00

Hall Camp ended and I don't have photos to upload. But I am proud of Apus for winning the best OG award. A bit disheartened for not winning the caring award. Maybe I should have been more open when caring for the welfare of others. Well, it doesn't matter since I didn't do what I did to get such an award.

At first, I didn't want to attend hall camp cause I have unfinished work and my room mate was not in it. Also, the attendance and "high-ness" of my OG was not very good at precamp. Last but not least, I was seriously worried that I would pull down the whole OG during the camp as I am very sure that I am physically the weakest amongst the rest. Look at it this way, the others are all trained in the army and they will somehow have some fitness in them. On the other hand, I was from doing clerical work so how am I able to compare my physical fitness with the others? I am glad that I did not pull the team down due to my lack of physical fitness during the games as well as during amazing race.

Day 1, everybody were still like strangers to each other and there were like small cliques among us. As usual, I tried to keep my profile low because I know that once I start, 2 things will happen. 1. Lameness, 2. Long-winded comments. It did happened cause I became more open at the later part of the camp. It turned out that I was the only 1 who went to research on some landmarks within NTU. Unfortunately, everything I got wasn't useful at all except for the NIE logo which was used during amazing race.
Initiation was dirty cause it's like that every year. lol. A lot of tricks pulled on us. I got a title "Mr Insensitive" cause I was never disturbed by the leaves and other "creepy" props. lol.

Day 2, beach games. Serious sunburn that day and that was also the day I started to open up. I just got the "urge" to start the cheers. So much for being in NPCC. lol.
After that, people start to think that I am not a freshman... Serious sun burn until cannot sit down for 2 days. Not going to talk about the games cause some of it are embarrassing. Should have played the "mahjong" game more because out of the 3 times I went in, I didn't get hit by any water bombs at all. Mini SP date that night also (if I remember the day correctly). I couldn't guess who my SP was. lol.

Day 3 was field games and fright night. Another dirty game in it and there was tug-of-war which I didn't want to join in because I have no confidence in my physical strength. Captain's ball included things like raw chicken (Tommy)...
Then we went to have outdoor laser quest in the afternoon. It's different from the 1 I experienced before and there were pros and cons. Fright night I didn't know exactly who my partner was cause there I got swapped around. Ended with Mei Shian and she was like brave la. like not scared at all. I was like stoning throughout the thing and have slow reaction. I pity the "ghosts" cause they have to keep shouting and screaming. The only shocks I got was the sudden shouting/screaming cause I really hate loud sounds. I pity the meal worms too because they were being stabbed at...
We had heart-to-heart talk session as well and I was quite shocked at an OG mate's answer although it was linked up due to other factors.

Day 4 was SP date and I couldn't guess who my SP was. But my CGL arranged me to move off first and less tekan session cause of my injury. felt quite bad because I was given special attention. We went to mac for breakfast and then have a group movie and lunch. had SP dinner together also before we all split and and return to our OG and back to hall.

Day 5 was dragon race & amazing race and I'm quite proud to say that I managed to last through all despite my lack in physical strength. Everyone supported one another and we managed to get through the whole thing. We had another long HTHT session and was bad because we were chased out by the security cause someone complained. Then we shifted to elsewhere and continued. A lot of fun and laughter but I fell asleep and didn't want to return to my room cause there was air con in that room. lol.

Day 6 we were given all our awards before we break camp. There were awards we didn't knew existed and I was a bit disappointed for not getting the caring pair award. lol. At least we got the best OG award XD.

During the whole camp, I think I did spread some wrong message to some people cause I was acting as though I am not a freshman and was too "caring" to a few perhaps but then that's just me. Maybe just because I am not doing things like what other people would usually do? or perhaps it like what some ppl would do to others? Hopefully things will clear up if not the situation will be odd when we have other hall activities. even now, coordinating events is a hassle... lol.

Want to sleep early to catch back lost sleep so didn't write everything in.

Update

2011-07-30T23:59:00.002+08:00

Went to check into the "Hotel" earlier and was quite shocked with the cleanliness of the room. Spent hours just to clean it. Did the cleaning twice and I think a 3rd time will be needed. Quite sad that my room mate didn't get to go for Hall Camp. Guess I'll need to really make new friends. I hope I won't be the burden of my group.

Still hoping for the same thing and I hope it will come true.

Next song would be "Believe". (will add in the song at a later time)

Unable to find any words, I instinctively reached out to touch your shoulder
And you, without saying anything, coldly broke free
Because of a trivial misunderstanding, our young love is giving way
I don't want to see such a sad face

Even though your dream may be dissolving, just don't abandon that smile
It's what keeps my own heart glowing

We swore one day to build the future with our own hands
At any cost, on this planet, no matter where on it you are
And now the two of us stand with pained eyes and glances diverted,
But I believe we'll be able to meet again

The starry sky we used to gaze up at together, where so much light streamed through
All the memories of that still won't fade away

If you really listen for it, you'll begin to hear that phrase
in the melody of the flute that was played

And behind the sky, in the tomorrow my heart depicts,
In that same place, I'll be right by your side once more
Surely we'll be together from now on, plunging ahead through these days
Because there could be a meaning to all of this after all

We swore one day to build the future with our own hands
At any cost, on this planet, no matter where on it you are
And behind the sky, in the tomorrow my heart depicts,
In that same place, I'll be right by your side once more
Now the two of us stand with pained eyes and glances diverted,
But I believe we'll be able to meet again

Too tired to write anymore stuff. Hope we will be able to meet again.

update

2011-07-24T13:42:00.002+08:00

Went for monthly shoot today and my score was 95 91 95 95 95 93. Total score was 564, 5 points off the cut of. Actually, I estimated for my score to be around 555. Anyway, that's the results from about 1 or 2 weeks of training. I remember coach saying that I am capable of shooting 560+ as long as I am able to focus and keep my mind clear. I suppose she can tell that something is bothering me but guessed it's too sensitive to ask. Perhaps it's because there are times my eyes became red. Of course there were tears but I was able to control it such that it would not be an excessive amount that cause it to be visible. Ever since that incident, going to the range would bring back both the happy and unhappy memories. The negative side is that both types would cause the same effect which I am unable to describe now. But I was glad that I had those happy memories. Often, I felt like quitting but it's the words from my coaches that helped me to proceed on with the sports. Coach Zhu would always say that I have the potential and would ask me to continue to train and improve. Sooner or later I would be able to produce good scores. On the other hand, da ge would sometimes scold me (positive type/positive criticism) so that I could wake up from the nightmare and move on. Although filled with depressing emotions, I would still drag myself to the range either for work or for training. I have to face the problem instead of running away from it. I told the certain someone (don't think she would be reading my blog anymore) that she should face the situation. If that is the case, I have to overcome my problem first. If I can't do that, how do I expect her to do the same?

Let's start talking about today's shoot. Oh well, I didn't expect myself to get such scores. As usual, all the unhappy stuff starts flooding into my mind while in the range (SAFRA range this time). However, I kept pushing on. at my 42nd shot onwards, my mind really couldn't take it but I pushed myself (I didn't fall down so don't worry) and continued. The same thing happened for my 56th shot onwards. Although the last 5 shots consists of 4 nines and an eight, I felt proud of myself because I was still able to overcome my problem although not completely. I had a 7 and an 8 in my second series but the total number of shots with less than 9 was at most 5 shots i think. Only if I was able to focus completely, I might have kept all shots at least 9 points and probably more 10 points. I will still train hard and not disappoint those who supported me ever since the start of my shooting "career".

Came back home and saw her online. I'm quite glad that I didn't get blocked out. At least no matter how mean I was, she's still kind enough to keep my contact. I made a promise not to contact her for the rest of this month and I have to keep that promise. I messed up many other things I am trying very hard now to resolve everything and to save everything. She was my everything and although things will not be as beautiful as before(unless if there's some miracle), I am still hoping that we can be close friends and meet often (even if I got into new relationship(s)). Let time heal our wounds and once they are healed, then we will work on removing the scars. Well, the doctor (me) and the patient (her) will have to work together so that the scars can be removed completely. I am working on the scars on my own with the help of friends :)

If you are reading my blog, I hope you'll do well in your studies, be in the best of health, be happy and smile often :) My challenge is still on so feel free to claim your reward anytime you want as long as you have the evidence.

I hope my efforts get paid off too. Will still be trying very hard so that things will become better(even if it means controlling myself not to contact you like now) (:

Update

2011-07-23T10:45:00.002+08:00

A few days passed only but I think I'll just update a little. My tagbox and comments are being flooded with spam links so if any friend(s) have comments, kindly contact me via other means.

Anyway, I have been trying to pack myself with work and appointments these few weeks to try to distract myself from thinking about certain stuff. This month is a very difficult month for me. Although I was told it wasn't a mistake back then, now I do think it's a very big mistake. Have I not done well enough? Or was it a mistake in the first place? I seriously do not know. I would like to have answers. But I believe that I would never get any. even if I do, I wouldn't know if it's the truth.

If I remember correctly, Ms Lacus mentioned before that it is alright to cry. However, Kira did say he don't want to cry anymore and eventually, we never got to see him shed a tear anymore. That's only if life can be as simple as an anime.

A lot of ppl thinks I'm dumb to be like still doing what I'm doing now but then, I'm dumb in the first place. If not, things may not have turned out to be how it is now. Don't even know what the outcome is but I am willing to spend on it. I can only hope things turn out well.

Actually I forgot what I actually wanted to write in too...

update

2011-07-21T22:30:00.003+08:00

Felt stupid for all the mean things I have done which made things impossible to go back to how they were even if there were to be a miracle. Somehow, I just don't think of the consequences carefully before I do things. Thus hurting others and eventually hurting myself. Deeply regretted my actions and I hope it is not too late.

I was thinking about something. If God really exist, can someone please ask Him to stop playing tricks on me? Some friends say it's a trial but why do I have to be reminded about the unhappy events when I was already ready to move on? I guess there's nothing I can do and just hope things will become better.

Anyway, changed the song to something else to describe how I'm feeling now. This song is 1 of the songs used in Gundam Seed. Below is the translation. Although the person whom is song is dedicated for would most likely not view this blog, but I would still hope the message will be passed over somehow.

In this quiet night, I'm waiting for you
During that time, your smile has faded away
Now that a little time has passed,
Fond memories start to resurface.

At the place where stars fall,
I'm always wishing for your laughter.
Even though we're apart now
We can meet again, right?

From when has my smile faded this much
Since it was shattered by one mistake
Change only the precious things into light and*
Go beyond the sky with fortitude.

To the place where stars fall,
I want my thoughts to reach you.
I am always by your side
Since I will embrace that coldness.
Even though we're apart now,
We will definitely be back together.

In the quiet night...

Update

2011-07-16T12:46:00.002+08:00

A lot of things happened and i kind of like don't feel like writing here cause i will be reminded of all the unhappiness. I can just say that I'm always the one who caused my own downfall...

People say rules and promises are meant to be broken but to me, they are to be followed. I don't know how long the promises I made will last but at some time and during different circumstances, these promises will have to be broken.

I am rather attracted to several anime characters mainly because of their abilities in the anime. However, I prefer some of their personalities and the things they do. I will probably just talk about characters I prefer in Katekyo Hitman Reborn!

In no order of preference, 1st up is Lambo (kid). Lambo is 5-6 years old throughout the whole show. at that young age, he does not need to attend school and there's practically nothing for him to worry about. All he needs to do is just to have fun and enjoy himself.

Next up, Hibari Kyoya. Hibari Kyoya is somewhat similar to me in terms of preference such as not liking noisy and crowded places. Similarly, we don't like to be binded by anything. More of we prefer to decide our own fates.

Lastly, Sawada Tsunayoshi(Tsuna). Tsuna is rather similar to be in most cases just that I'm not as bad in everything he is and I do not have intuition as good as his. Tsuna is practically bad at everything he does be it studies or sports.

Let's also just say that I'm not good with decision making. Sometimes, although I know I would offend someone, I chose to say things that will offend the other person. there's a chinese idiom that says good advice are often awful to the ear. Meaning ppl prefer to be curry flavoured all over instead of accepting criticism. There are things which I do or say which offend others especially my loved ones but it is all because I care.

What has been done cannot be undone. Hope is lost but I still would like to believe in a miracle although I wasted 1 entering into a local university.

Update

2011-07-08T12:09:00.003+08:00

I'm not dead yet but didn't sleep until almost 5am, the time I was supposed to go for my run. Woke up around 8am. Anyway, I'm dedicating this song to someone who I don't think will visit my blog. (remember to pause the mixpod before playing this song). Since the song is dedicated to her, I am putting in the lyrics in traditional Chinese which she is able to read. This song elaborates how I am feeling and thinking for the past few days(or at least 90% or so). Although the song title is talking about rain in June(literally) and it's July now, the meaning is there.

六月的雨 by 胡歌

一場雨把我困在這裏你冷漠的表情會讓我傷心
六月的雨就是無情的你伴隨著點點滴滴痛擊我心裏

wo~我不相信你不是故意的卻為何把我丟棄在風雨裏
wo~我不忍心也不想背叛你唯有默默等你回心轉意

我沒有放棄也不會離你而去那怕要分開我依然等你
我全心全意等你的消息總會有一天
你會相信我我愛你

一場雨想念你在我的心中都不可比擬
你走後什麼都已經消失在風雨裡
一場雨想念你我愛你

一場雨把我困在這裏你冷漠的表情會讓我傷心
六月的雨就是無情的你伴隨著點點滴滴痛擊我心裏

wo~我不相信你不是故意的卻為何把我丟棄在風雨裏
wo~我不忍心也不想背叛你唯有默默等你回心轉意

我沒有放棄也不會離你而去那怕要分開我依然等你
我全心全意等你的消息總會有一天
你會相信我我愛你

一場雨想念你在我的心中都不可比擬
你走了什麼都已經消失在風雨裡
一場雨想念你我愛你

Update

2011-07-07T23:57:00.000+08:00

Removed tag board cause of spammers with links which could link to malicious websites in case any visitor clicked on those by accident.

Anyway, have a feeling that something bad is going to happen so I'm doing this entry if something really happen and this is my last post.

A few days ago, I entered the lift from the ground level and the arrow was pointing down. It happened again today so it's probably a bad omen I guess. Have been down on luck etc for quite some time. Had headache for a few days last week but acted as if there's nothing, had an unpleasant experience in something else, and having some other trouble.

Wanted to sleep at 9pm earlier on but woke up at 10+ suddenly. Didn't sleep well these few days and I don't know what's happening. Maybe the next time I sleep, that's it. haha. Oh well, maybe it doesn't really bother me anymore.

Maybe everything is in it's current state for a purpose. So that when I leave, less ppl will be affected. But if it's going to happen, I hope it happens before school starts so that my education loan will not become a burden for my family...

So in case anything bad really happen, I would like to thank my family for the care they gave for all these years. Thank all my friends especially those who spend time hearing me out whenever I have problems.

I must say my life is quite a failure. I don't have many friends who i can confide in. I don't have many friends to go out together with for movies. I wasn't good in academic studies, i'm not street smart, i failed in some other things and probably many others as well. I didn't perform well in work previously and lost some friends who I thought could be friends who I can finally confide in.

Oh well. I think I stop here for now and see if I will still be able to post more in future.

Update

2011-07-06T23:37:00.003+08:00

A lot of things happened lately. Mostly are unhappy and unlucky things. Well, there are decisions which are very difficult for me to make. But still, I will change myself to be how I used to 10years ago. Serious and never worry that much.

Sometimes I wonder if being selfish reduces the hurt 1 gets when something bad happens. since the person loves him/herself more, how much hurt could he/she get? Life have to go on but I am thankful for the few but good friends I could talk to when I have both good and bad memories.

I think, I will be waiting for a miracle to happen. As for now, it's time to sleep. Hopefully I am able to wake up in the morning for my morning run. doing evening run as well. making myself go through a fake BMT (- all the static exercises). Hoping to lose about 5-10kg in 1 week. lol... not very possible but it will never happen if I never tried.

Forever

2011-06-19T12:57:00.000+08:00

A few days have past and it's time to update my blog. Will be omitting some stuff though. Anyways, got into a quarrel with my wife quite frequently the past few weeks but everything turn out ok now and hopefully it'll stay as it is. :)

I have decided to stay in hall during my uni education. that way, i will not be tempted to visit my wife after she ends school or keep trying to ask her out since most of the time i will not be near her. However, I am willing to travel that long distance over just to meet her if she wants to. :)

I recall one of my teachers (I think it was my ex-CT) saying this "separation make the heart gets closer" or something along that line. Meaning to say a short period of separation get the couple loving and cherishing each other more because they get to feel how it is like without the other half around (which is unbearable). Whether or not it applies to only me or to the both of us, I hope by the end of this separation period, we will get closer. By then, I will have a surprise for you :)

I will do my homework everyday. If 1 day I didn't submit my homework, something bad could have happened. :(

After the estimated 7 years, I want to hold your hand and walk with you forever, down the path of our lives.

But for now, It is to work hard, get a good degree, get a good job with good pay, get a good house, get a good wife(you are already my good wife) and enjoy a good future. :)

No more gaming... so now there are only 3 things, you, school work, cca(for hall points).

I want to dream forever with you

Following the happy breeze, beneath that bright sky that blinds me
Beautiful melodies and fresh air fills this road that I’m walking with you
Do you remember? Those awkward and unfamiliar times when we first met
I’m thankful to you for silently taking care of me when I was hesitant and young

My exhausted heart beats once again
My weak heart has found light again
I want to hold your hand and walk like this forever
Together with the person I love in a world just for the two of us

Those unforgettable memories during that long time
Throughout the laughter and the tears, the one who always believed in me was you

My exhausted heart beats once again
My weak heart has found light again
I want to hold your hand and walk like this forever
Together with the person I love in a world just for the two of us

No one will bother us
There’s not even a reason to waste any time
(Sometimes) We could be far from each other
(With the same heart) The same heart as one, dreaming the same dream

Even if a very long time passes (A long time passes)
Even if you and I become a bit different (A bit different)
I want to dream forever with you like this
The one who fulfilled my wishes, the one who became my faith, with you

Even if a very long time passes (A long time passes)
Even if you and I become a bit different (A bit different)
I want to dream forever with you like this
The one who became my miracle, the one who dreamed with me, with you

Even a long time passes, I want to dream forever with you

Mistake

2011-06-08T23:59:00.001+08:00

Skipping to the song "Mistake". There was once I saw this question asked in a Hong Kong drama. "Does he love me more or am I the one loving him more? Come to think of it, I was the one who initiated and asked him out. I suppose I love him more?". When I saw this question, I started to ask myself as well. Although it wasn't me who initiated asking her out, I liked her first. My thought was, does it matter who love who more? Although I suppose it will be tougher for the 1 who loved the other more, but then, if that person gives up so easily, just how much value is their love?

Maybe I wasn't doing enough to make you love me more? Maybe it's my fault for loving you more than you love me such that I am taken for granted? Maybe I shouldn't be asking too much, asking for you to love me the same as I love you. It does hurt whenever you reply with a smiley knowing that I am hurt/upset. Even though your words may have varied from the initial promise, I still believe in the 1 you made during those early days. This song describes how I feel this morning and perhaps a few days ago.

No matter how bad things are, I still love you. I don't want to let you go and I can't do that.

In ( "Name" ) are the parts sang by whichever member.

(Jessica) I’m still at the same place
I’m weary from wandering by your side
(Seohyun) Even today, as I was wandering
Day has passed again and again
Now I’m here
(Sooyoung) You know. You know that my heart is hurting
(Yoona) Watching you laugh/smile makes my heart ache more

(All) It’s my mistake for not making you love me more
It’s my mistake for loving you more than you loved me
It’s my mistake for not making you love me as much as I wanted you to…

(Taeyeon) How much longer must I cry?
As I’m trusting that promise/I’m only trusting/ believing that promise
(Sunny) You lied to me to wait for you
Even my greedy side (for his love) has grown weary/tired
(Hyoyeon) You know. You know that my heart is hurting/aching
(Tiffany) You can’t just ignore and laugh/smile like that

It’s my mistake for not making you love me more
It’s my mistake for loving you more than (you love/like me? This is my assumption )
It’s my mistake for not making you love me as much as I wanted you to.

(Yuri) I knew I couldn’t have you
(Sica) But my heart (my love for you) just kept growing
(Taeyeon) It’s my mistake for,
Waiting by myself
Regretting by myself
Loving you

(All) Even though my heart was hurting/aching
It’s my mistake for not letting you go/forgetting you

(Taeyeon) I’m such a fool
I knew I would get hurt and couldn’t let go

Seohyun – it’s my mistake
(Sunny) Even though it could be all my fault/mistake
That’s ok. As long as you’re there…
(Tiffany) Always…
(Taeyeon) Please forgive me for being like this (Forgive the person) Who loved you”

Fear

2011-06-07T17:53:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was the day which was the most fearful day for me. There were many scenarios which I hoped would never happened. If those were to happen, I do not know what to do.

The second song is "If" (만약에), sang by Korean singer Kim Taeyeon from Girls' Generation. 1 of the few songs which drew me closer to liking the group's music.

Maybe it's because of past experience which built up this fear in me. I'll just skip the recap cause I really don't want to recall the bad experiences.

I hope that this time round, it's not because of being useful that I managed to be in my current status. All the past experiences had also resulted in a lot of fears for doing other stuff which I shall not say. People who are closer to me will know what I'm talking about.

Not everything relates to my thoughts but to some extent it is. Most importantly, I am afraid of you drifting apart and away from me. Even the thought itself is scary. =(

Anyway, this song is also the 1 which Solomon was looking for when we went went to Kbox.

If I go, if I go closer to you
I wonder what you may think, I can’t drum up the courage

If you go, if you go away from me
It is scary to figure out how to let you go

Perhaps, the reason I only look at you, like a fool,
is for fear that you may turn your face away, and
you and I may drift further apart

Perhaps, the reason I can’t say ‘I love you’, like a fool,
is that I am afraid of the painful sad days of waiting after we meet.

If you come, if you come closer to me
I really don’t know what to do

Perhaps, the reason I only look at you, like a fool,
is for fear that you may turn your face away, and
you and I may drift further apart

Perhaps, the reason I can’t say ‘I love you’, like a fool,
is that I am afraid of the painful sad days of waiting after we meet.

Perhaps, the reason I can’t say ‘I love you’, like a fool,
is that I am afraid of the painful sad days of waiting after we meet.

Dedication to dear dear

2011-06-05T13:34:00.002+08:00

There was a very special day. The day where I no longer felt alone. The day I felt I needed and was needed. That date will be a secret which only we know and that is when you became my everything to me. This revival post is dedicated to you. ^^
The lyrics of this song reads out how I feel. Maybe not exactly everything but I'm sure you know which are the main parts that is truly my thoughts and feeling.
The reason why I chose this blogskin is because I want to make you smile but not by force. I am sorry for the days where I wasn't able to do so and for the days I made you angry and/or upset.

Wherever you are hiding in the world
I can find you, I can find you
If you didn’t exist, if you didn’t exist
My heart would stop beating

Even if you say you don’t love me
I can feel with my heart
If you are here, if you are here
I don’t need anything

You are my everything to me,
You are my everything to me
Please shine like a star in the sky
You are my only love,
Forever my only love
We love each other, so all I need is you

Can it be compared with anything else?
Can it be exchanged with anything else?
Your love, your heart
Who can replace you?

You are my everything to me,
You are my everything to me
Please shine like a star in the sky
You are my only love,
Forever my only love
We love each other, so all I need is you

We will never be separated
Anything that will hurt you
Nothing can cause tears to fall

You are my everything to me,
You are my everything to me
Let’s not change, even as time passes
You are my only love,
Forever my only love
We love each other, in a place without sadness

Reborn!!!

2011-01-15T22:42:00.000+08:00

Gonna start blogging again though I doubt anyone will read. Might be relocating so not many have access to the more sensitive stuff etc. if not ppl know my nick then go tell ppl who shouldn't know of what i say then jia lat liao...

A lot of problems at work... emails going missing so i can't follow up... Hoping ppl to call and ask instead of thinking it's confirmed...

lazy to follow up now. gotta sleep soon. still have to work tomorrow :( i'm like 7-11...

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2010-06-05T00:00:00.001+08:00

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Update

2010-02-28T20:27:00.002+08:00

Yo people, I finally have a chance to update.

First of all, I beat my PB and got 562 today. It was a kind of a waste cause I didn't do well at the start (cause of me not used to the earplugs. keep hearing my heartbeat which makes it beat faster T.T) and also my last shot. Wanted to put down my weapon but fired off by mistake. luckily it was a 8 instead of 7.

oh well, to round up, I scored 91, 92, 96, 95, 93, 95. Better luck next time (NTU shoot).

Next, Yesterday was SG SONE shirt collection/purchase day. I got mine but forgot to check the quality :( anyway, I managed to fill up my collection till i'm left with TI003. Can't decide if I should start collecting foil. At most TA foil only??

Started my official Hangeul lesson from e-prep today and it was totally crappy. It teaches you to remember what is what by heart but did not even start teaching pronounciation. Luckily I learnt a bit somewhere from someone. Too bad I can't refund. :( The voice recording lesson sucks. I couldn't get anything recorded even though i spoke really loud into the mic... haiz... guess I'll never be able to complete the course.

Gentle reminder: Never be too stingy when it comes to things like learning...

That's all for now. I haven had my dinner after coming back. Lesson later.

Shifted back

2010-02-13T14:00:00.002+08:00

ok people, I shifted back cause the other blog add is too long and troublesome. Blog template still under construction and i accidentally removed my links. please tag at my tagboard for me to re-link. thanks.

Happy Lunar New Year :)

moved

2009-09-27T17:12:00.001+08:00

shifted to http://whoareyou-iamlambo-whoami-youarelambo.blogspot.com/

Katekyo Hitman Reborn! Episode 120 Part 3 ENG SUB

2009-06-19T11:24:00.001+08:00

update

2009-05-24T23:28:00.000+08:00

NEW PB FOR TODAY!!! 558. haha. at SAFRA somemore, away grounds. haha. only if the 7s were 9s, i would have got my first 564 or more. haha.

hands were super itchy cause of mosquito bites and the back of my neck too. luckily for most of them i stopped to scratch instead of try to fire off. those that i tried to fire off got either 7 or 8. haha. guess what, i took 1hr+ for my competition. haha. Cherlyn was like saying i shoot very fast but she have not seen how fast i can go. but that was in the past. learnt something new today, but come to think of it, i think i did it b4 but can't reproduce it anymore. it's like going into hyper dying will mode. lol. was kind of like i could control it so many it's my version of zero point breakthrough. haha.

got serious headache after the shoot. dunno why. still having it. think i'll go sleep now. haha. other stuff i'll just omit. nothing much anyway. felt really depressed today too. partially due to 1 month's shoot being wasted. haha. and many other stuff. i hope i still have enough time to do whatever i want and whatever i need to.

update

2009-05-20T06:26:00.000+08:00

stupid msn, i can't sign in...

update

2009-05-19T23:41:00.003+08:00

ok, started work today but did only the basics. got lots more to learn. hope i can learn quickly with my super poor memory. haha. anyway, training today is super screwed even though some of my shots were like super good. the "auto-focus" of my eyes went haywire earlier on. there are groupings i tot i screwed up completely and it turned out to be very good. i think 1 of it had 99 points. haha. gotta check again tomorrow. haha. then for series i thought was good, it sucks totally but the grouping is still ok. haha. dunno what's happening. i need enlightenment. lol. alright, time to head to bed or it'll be coffee tomorrow. haha.

update

2009-05-18T20:23:00.002+08:00

oh ya, forgot to mention that i came across some stuff which i decided to get them as Christmas present. haha. didn't specially get them but then there's no occasion to give right? so they'll have to wait in 'store' till Christmas. haha. hope i'll get to see the receipient. like that more sincerity ma. shall not disclose anything about it. :P

today... erm... dunno what to say la. but at least today is one of the better days. hope i can take off on either 11 or 12 june for NUSIS. at least they'll allow me to take leave. alright. time to prepare myself mentally for "hell" starting tomorrow. somehow i'm still hoping for the same thing which i shouldn't. stupid right? haha. i need a miracle... no wait... i need unlimited amount of miracles... haha... oops, kind of greedy. saw a friend's blog post today which reminds me that i had always wanted to create a time machine many years ago. sounds old right? haha. but i wanted to after watching some show or movie that has something to do with time travel. yup.

update

2009-05-17T21:23:00.000+08:00

watched Angels & Demons (whatever it is) yesterday and it's nice, suspense and all. been quite a long time since i last watched a movie. haha. well, before the movie, went with da ge and peng to safra cause da ge was going down to train. then a while at safra, i agreed to watch the movie la. haha. as long as the others don't mind. haha. well, peng and i went to a coffee shop somewhere to have our dinner. peng ate a bit only. haha. maybe i should start dieting too. lol. anyway, we went GV after dinner to get the tickets and peng's ex-student was there. haha. she didn't recognise her and neither did i. ok la, i don't go down to range to see who's there. at most is see who're the better pistol shooters. regretted somehow. should have noticed more people. haha. if not see already also dunno they were there. after getting the tickets, we went back to range and then later peng said "da ma" will be joining us so we went back to get another ticket. lol. and that ticket was like the last 1 in our row. then was like later boss say she's coming then how? haha. anyway, peng and i went to play time crisis 4 and 3 in GV. then later da ma came and peng left with her to bk after "dying". i continued a while longer and lost also. no time limit. haha. finished all the extra weapons. haha. then went to join them later. as usual, my mouth jammed and i didn't talk much. da ma was like asking me to share the fries but i declined as usual. then later peng asked me to help finish 2 of her mexican drumlets. i did. cause da ma didn't want either. don't waste food ma. then was like saying hometeam shooters must be able to eat a lot 1. haha. cause da ge and friend can eat a lot. haha. then later da ma asked me to finish the fries for her. and i did. haha. got to upgrade my denying skills in future. maybe soon. haha. if not, i'll be jammed with work.

then later we went up and da ma bought cup corn for me. haha. so paiseh la. haha. then while inside, our seats were taken and peng agreed to take over their seats like 2 rows back. then later da ge came in and was, i think, a little shocked? cause we were not there and seats taken. haha. then we waved to him la. he bought nachos combo and asked me if i wanted but i declined. he haven eat dinner ma. then i ask him why he bought that instead of popcorn cause nachos can't last through the show. haha. then he said "cause it's nicer". haha. then he asked back why i had cupcorn, also can't last long through the show. haha. i didn't tell him da ma treated me to it la. haha.

ok, no spoilers here :P

then after the movie, da ge drove peng and i back to our respective homes. and i was first to alight. haha. my house nearby ma. haha.

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ok, now for today. didn't really happen much. haha. couldn't find the phone protective cover for my phone. haiz. anyway, went to west mall and i bought something which i could use as present in future. :P not going to say what. haha. gotta go back to course tomorrow and back to office on tuesday. hope i'll survive in office. got to sleep as early as possible or drink coffee like water. haha. been heaty recently. gotta top another 1L into me later. haha.

memory is like getting worse by the day. i'm getting old. haha. hope i can forget things i should forget and not things that i should remember. haha. and i hate my super easy to flush face. haha.

update

2009-05-14T22:53:00.003+08:00

NS is driving me crazy. haha. but then perhaps it's just that i'm having a very negative mindset? well, maybe i should use Hibari's motto. whatever it is, it's something like nothing shall restrain my will. haha. so maybe i should use my dying will and work to the EXTREME until i ORD.

i hate lunch cause i'll be having it alone. it's not the company but more of the problem of finding seats. got to wake up at 5+ every morning. sleep at 11+ every night. Coffee is definately going to be like water to me soon.

getting emotional sometimes and this is really bad. and i shouldn't be holding onto things that are impossible. it's useless cause things never go my way. haha. shall not mention too much. maybe in somewhere else this weekend or something... haha.

alright, got to sleep soon. ciao ciao...

update

2009-05-11T21:35:00.000+08:00

got to go for another 5 days of training in HTA. posting is bad too. got nothing to say. hope it won't affect my shooting and hope i can get leave for NUSIS if it so happened that i need to.

been thinking of stuff, people etc. feeling kind of dumb doing these. there's seriously no point thinking of all these stuff but i can't help.

deciding between E63 and E71. probably get E63.

hopefully i don't transfer into IMH cause of work.

update

2009-05-09T16:44:00.000+08:00

POP finally over. got to wait till i'm posted out. anyway, my luck was really bad on friday. probably not going to talk about it. haha. been lots of time wasting and extreme suay-ness. got a locker at HTNS range, got myself 1 tin of R10 and pellet box though i never thought i'll be using it before. thing it safe more time during training. HTNS is not sending any team for NUSIS. WTH!!! was prepared to join as individual ($50) but then Coach Nigel and Coach Ho decided to join in as team. haha. quite a strong team and i'm the lagger. haha. hope i can bring up my average back to at least 555 in 1 month. probably going to train 6days a week. at least 4 la. haha. provided my workload is not heavy and there's no OT. so the $50 became $30. haha. and hope i can do part-time to earn more allowance to buy 1 LP10 and also R10 pellets etc. haha. gonna participate in all SSA monthly shoot from this month onwards.

been trying to slow down my shooting speed but then the outcome is about the same as me going at high speed. going to shoot slow speed tomorrow as long as my heel doesn't hurt. slow speed means more lag time in between shots so i don't overstrain myself. haha.

update

2009-05-03T16:58:00.003+08:00

going back in real soon. hope i won't get involved in anything. haha. POP is coming soon la... dun want to get into any kind of trouble.

anyway, i might be giving up on something cause of my arm. if it doesn't recover by next month, i might just do so. wonder if it's due to a lack of calcium or overloading of calcium. lol. anyway, still pondering about it. only if some special people persuade me. haha. but that is still after the decision is being made. maybe it's time for me to start slowing certain things down so i wouldn't strain it too much.

that's all for now. many things bothering me dunno who i can talk to. dun wanna disturb others when they have their own things too. haiz...

Katekyo Hitman REBORN! op 3

2009-05-03T11:57:00.003+08:00

Katekyo Hitman Reborn Opening 4

2009-05-03T11:57:00.001+08:00

Katekyo Hitman REBORN! OP5

2009-05-03T11:56:00.001+08:00

update

2009-05-02T23:13:00.000+08:00

hmm, let's see. left for training today and was there quite late. reached hours later from the time i said i would be there. seldom see uncle Jimmy around these days. wonder if he's still working at the range or enjoying his life already =D haha. hope he is. anyway, NPSC was there having their monthly shoot and Jeannel smsed me to go help collect cards. but then i was so late, by the time i reached, the event was about to end. was caught up with some housework and all at home before i left. trained for about 1 hour but the pain in my elbow came at around my 40th shot. several very off shots cause of the pain being over my limit. sometimes it's a little sharp. gonna try again tomorrow if i have time. probably cause i strained it too much. cause of POP rehearsal i guess. exerted too much force. few days ago the problem came too during 1 of the POP drill rehearsals. haiz...

anyway, went with the NP guys and Jeannel out for lunch at Oasis. bought food from char-grilled... whatever it's called. anyway, the food there... hmm, quite ok and it's filling. haha. gotta start working out once i get to change equipments. uniform and stuff. didn't really chat with them much cause i don't really know them, no intro, nothing. oh well, nvm. haha. (Hibari: "only the weak flock together in groups") just kidding, been doing things alone for a long time in the past. so i think that changed me a little. then went back home after lunch.

mum's arm isn't in good condition. it's all due to over straining it for long periods of time. gotta help mum do housework from now on. only if i'd started much earlier. things might have been better. hope she'll recover soon and the doctor would have time for the operation (i think). at least solve the problem.

helped mum with cooking today. i should have cooked once in a while. i'm all clumsy now. haha. cause flip the food stuff as easily as i did in the past. think that's all for now. can't think of anything else now. ciao ciao

update

2009-04-30T23:27:00.000+08:00

had a very terrible week. life is just unfair. people gets punished for doing nothing while those who did all the terrible things are happy when the punishment is light (for their case). sometimes, people are so selfish that they never think of the consequences of their actions, who else will suffer for their actions and all. systems in this world is flawed. is there really justice? is there fairness? or is it just a practice, a set of things to follow blindly?

still kind of disturbed by the planning of class gathering. there'll always be restrictions, disagreement, and most importantly, the number of replies and confirmations. things can't really go on without those. what if we did not book enough rooms? what if many people suddenly back out? who's going to absorb the cost? but then again, it's not possible to book when it's near the actual date cause by then, it'll be fully booked. argh... nevermind...

my mind is always in a whirl... i dunno what i'm thinking. dunno myself anymore... lots of "whys" are coming out of my mind again. haiz...

update

2009-04-26T00:54:00.004+08:00

kena rashes cause of dirty stuff. the unhygienic kind. kena rashes. doubt it's heat rash cause it appeared after i woke up on friday. got tanned and i'm becoming a mixed. mixed of heat colour i mean... gotta . stay . calm till it's over. hope i get the vocation i want. things just doesn't seem to be going well. many kinds la.

also hope the class gathering thing get over and done with. as in everyone will reply asap. everything got to comfirm by end of this month. time is running out...

~...*thinking of many things and people*...~

update

2009-02-14T15:12:00.001+08:00

emo right now. and i made my best friend sad... i'm better off in a corner alone...

update

2009-02-08T15:45:00.002+08:00

update on yesterday and today, let's start with yesterday.

went to yishun polyclinic yesterday cause i'd been sick for like 3 weeks. when at around 11 and the queue was kind of bad. waited for like 1 hour and then there was announcement that the computer system was down and everything will be slowed down. talk about ill luck. so i thought i'll go to the washroom first and guess what, my number was called when i was in the washroom... so the doctor called for another patient then i realised that was my number (in another room). waited for the patient to be out b4 i went to tell the doctor i missed my queue. got in soon after and was "checked". told the doctor my cough lasted for about 2 to 3 weeks and then she gave some shocked look and told me that i need to go back and do a blood test and chest x-ray next week. the quese at the pharmacy is very long too and i didn't want to wait cause i had an appointment. haha. so left polyclinic at aorund 1? reached home and was going to prepare to go off but then my brother's going to send my sister to school so i decided to take a lift to the mrt station. reached 1st destination at 3+ and then went to bugis. panda was already at bugis when i was waiting for ember. went to a few places and i don't have concession T.T
well, went back to bugis eventually for Jubeat before going for movie. the movie was like "it won't happen in reality". at least that was what i thought. it'll be great if that happened. haha. and well, the most attractive part was the 5 "did i mention i was struck by lightning 7 times? 1 was... ...". the 6th was near the credits and i was wondering if the 7th will be after the credits. lol.
went to n.y.d.c for dinner and i saw a sec school schoolmate. haha. i ordered pizza and once again, i almost cleared the cheese powder. haha. the 3 of them were like, treating me as a freak. haha. but that's like "what's new" if Kenneth was around. haha. he'll be like "even after the GST, the shop still lose money". maybe i shouldn't mention anymore. haha. :P
went back and i had sudden mood change. haiz... let's skip this part too and come to whatever happened today.

went for monthly shoot and was doing kind of ok when i shot 5 T.T if not my PB would have been higher not to forget that the shot got me distracted and i got quite a number of 8s thereafter. i still have problem with the sudden shift of the sights. caused me at least 2 shots on 8. haiz... oh well, wait till i get my own weapon. wanted to leave b4 the results are out but then i stayed to help out. that's me, always like that... took quite some time b4 everything was over and we had to like finish eating everything b4 the results are announced? i got 2nd anyway and score was 554. it's like, the last time i touched air pistol was SSA monthly shoot. haha. and i'm using a LP2. took our vouchers and went to exchange lots of drinks. i got a yoko yoko for muscle aches. haha. oh well, after putting the drinks in pantry, we left and went to causeway point cause i wanted to look for presents. went to comics connection on my own while golden and panda went to the arcade. bought nothing. left and headed home. but i dropped by popular for stationaries and then cyberactive to look at PC mouse. didn't buy anything too since i didn't bring lots of cash out. then left for home.

still dunno what to get for my best friend. haiz. and my best friend didn't want me to get anything. another whirlpool again. haha.

emo

2009-02-08T00:26:00.000+08:00

what happens when you get emo? like what would you be thinking?

I'm:
stupid?
silly?
such a fool?
idoitic?
hesitate?
timid?
useless?

oh well, maybe stone and space out? i dunno. kind of stupid to just stone all of a sudden. and i did exactly last night on my way home for dunno what reason. kind of dumb. probably what we know as mood swing? oh well, have not been "myself" since last week. always getting people to become concerned and spoil their mood. lots of stuff flying around in my mind. sometimes there's so much that i dun even know if i'm thinking of anything. lots of why. i'm probably more suited to be a scientist. why do i feel this way? why does these happen? why this? why that? it's getting on my nerves. wonder why i can't stop myself from thinking of things. and it's not like i was able to use this to think for academic of more useful stuff. and this is 1 of the causes that make it difficult for me to sleep at night. haiz.

i hope my best friend will always be happy and will never experience any harm. i guess i'm just kind of weird. never really seen anyone else who does things exactly or nearly like me. haiz... time to sleep, monthly shoot later... hope i can get at least 550. haha. after so long of no training?

update

2009-02-01T12:12:00.001+08:00

30 Jan 09
went down to the shooting range wanting to train for SSA monthly shoot but i forgot that NUS had full range booking. luckily i was there to sign up for HomeTeamNS monthly shoot as well so not a wasted trip :P. saw coach while i was walking to the entrance but she didn't saw me. i walked over to her car and greeted her. she was kind of shocked cause she told me i didn't have to go over to the range. explained to her that i was there to sign up for monthly shoot so we headed for the range. saw Mr Tay and 2 other YJcians and we started talking so coach went over to her office to settle some stuff i think. then saw coach ho walking out probably going for dinner or something. then coach asked me to help load the stuff into her car but then i have yet to sign up for monthly shoot but "da ge" was so busy that i had to wait. haha. helped to carry Jeannel's stuff down to coach's car. and at that time, i went down with coach (i was supposed to be down first) cause i had to wait for the lift cause i wasn't seen walking over by the IJ students i think. so loaded everything up and then headed down to safra. i was in Mr Tay's car on the way to safra. sort of a free ride home. haha. helped to shift IJ's stuff cause they were kind of short-handed and so coach shifted Jeannel's stuff instead. probabaly cause it was lighter :P but i didn't mind la. coach had to settle other paper work as well ma. after storing everything, i went back home. went to the private clinic since polyclinic closes at 1630 (if i'm not wrong) and i can't make it the following day cause of monthly shoot and some other reasons. returned home for dinner then took medication from the private clinic. went online to do some stuff which i couldn't remember before i went to sleep. i think i went off at 12+

31 Jan 09
monthly shoot today and i woke up at around 6am. my alarm clock was set to 7am though. so laze until 7am actually. didn't really sleep. got fed up so might as well wake up and do some stuff. mum went to buy breakfast and so, i had prata without curry for breakfast cause i was still coughing. Jeannel came and i actually told her i would go down to help her with her stuff. but then i was too late :( she was in the lift i was waiting for. probably service lag or something so i received her sms kind of late (saw a car when i stepped out of house). saw Jeannel's dad in the lift and he look friendly :) didn't get to talk much (cause my old problem came out of it's hiding place). nothing much at home to entertain Jeannel actually so i asked her if she wanted to play pets society. haha. there were unlucky incidents during her hurdle races. sometime later, panda came and i was kind of shock cause my brother left house and suddenly panda came in. lol. then after a while more, my brother brought his friend home and i was still shocked. haha. my brother and his friend left then sometime later, "my party" left as well. we were like deciding where to have lunch for a long long time. more of me asking since friday. lol. ended up at BK for lunch. panda and i bought regular meals. mine was mushroom swiss and his bbq turkey bacon. Jeannel got chicken tenders, lemon tea (i think) and hersheys sundae pie. Jeannel was like, 'sick liao don't eat so much fries'. then there goes 1... 2... and so on... haha. but i didn't mind. somehow she ended up taking from panda. haha. so i just finished whatever i had :P was like very hungry and the ice lemon tea was somehow super nice. maybe it had been a long time since i tasted lemon tea. haha. then after that we went to comics connection. actually more of like i requested to go there. haha. got myself a supposed to be vongola ring necklace (for collection) and wanted to get like something else and after thorough examination, it turned out to be postcards... so i didn't get them. like a few postards for $13?! panda and Jeannel actually left while i was still examining the postcards. lol. then they came back to look for me. i decided just to get the necklace, paid, then left for safra. haha. i hate myself for always sweating... haiz... we were quite early and golden was busy with work. we just slacked around and Jeannel and panda fell asleep so i was left awake. haha. got to be 'on guard' too. haha. after some time, coach came and saw us and asked why i didn't go and look for her. haha. cause of the grip she's lending me actually. i'll be borrowing it till my own 1 arrives. guess what, the pistol i loan was used by someone else so i had no choice but to randomly use another 1. the sighting of it was like so low that my first sighting shot was nowhere on the target. sighted for like 20mins cause i didn't have a screwdriver and had to use my "fingernails" to sight =.= the rear sight "jerks" whenever i sight and i don't understand why either. thought LP2s are like that. the most stupid thing was whenever i sight the weapon upwards, it goes right as well. i ended up getting a curve =.= ln graph i think. (kind of forgotten)
the first half of my series were usually better and this time round, my last series was the worst. extreme opposite of how it usually was. T.T this is like the first time after so long, i managed to get less than 545 T.T peng was going to get me out to think through the mistakes but then, that was my last shot. lol. was first to finish although i was slower than usual. haha. and panda didn't seem to be doing well too... haha. well, treating it as an experience and training. stupid cough.... next month, i'm gonna shoot at least 550!!! but then again, i don't really have much training time. haiz. and i wasn't using my shooting specs. forgot to bring them despite constant reminders from Jeannel back at home. haha.
talked to coach about the shoot and the problem i had with my weapon. then kept the weapon and we left safra to orchard to find the book for Jeannel. luckily we went even though info from the bookstore which panda got was like "out of stock" =.= in fact, there was still a copy of it. haha. Thankfully it was there. so happy for Jeannel too. haha. headed off to cine to walk walk. panda and Jeannel played some drum games and then i received a phone call from my mum asking me to leave. like go over to where they are and i had to part with Jeannel and panda though i was kind of relunctant as well. but well, no choice. they were so nice to offer their time to walk with me to the MRT station and change their dining venue to toa payoh. i took the train all the way to jurong east, changed bus and reached my destination at around 10pm.
my godbrother was going back to England for work so we went there to like send him off? also like reunion dinner like that. chatted with them a little cause time wasn't on our side (i was 3hrs late). went to the airport and had drinks there. i should have gotten myself other drinks than hot chocolate. i though hot chocolate is usually sweet but mine wasn't probably due to me being sick, i couldn't get the real taste of it? bidded farewell and then left home. online till like 3am (i slept in the car on the way back).
Mum talked to me about relationships and stuff and i'm like "like i'll ever be attached. as in go into a relation" but i didn't say. she asked "are you going to just be like 'ok lor' if there's someone who likes you?" and i was thinking of "like that will ever happen". haha. then she asked what i'm looking for and my reply was "when the time comes then i decide and think through about it" haha. can't really remember the order of the questions. haha. i guess i will never have that kind of worry. haha.

1 Feb 09
woke up quite early but force myself back to sleep. else i'll be like only slept for 3 or 4 hrs. regretted though. still have things i needed to do. came online at 9+ made my own breakfast and took medication. sometimes my cough is ok and sometimes it's not. i wonder why. haiz... anyway, Jeannel will be coming over to take her luggage to safra for her monthly shoot. i'll be accompanying her down. yup. so i'm in-charge of her safety, the safety of her property, as well as the transportation of her property :P haha. time to start packing and polish my boots. haha. maybe after lunch. haha.

I miss my best friend a lot. almost all the time. haha. hope my best friend will be alright all the time especially during times i couldn't be present. :(

update

2009-01-27T01:11:00.001+08:00

still sick today but at least the cough is not so bad anymore. hope it'll recover after my sleep. haha. gonna meet Jeannel, Panda and Golden later. got to sleep soon cause going back to somewhere in the evening T.T got to pack my bag and polish boots early in the morning too. haiz...

went to grandma's place somewhere around afternoon cause we all woke up late. haha. had a slice of bread cause i wanted to take my medication. after eating the plain bread, i couldn't find my medicine. phoned mum if she kept them somewhere else and she did cause she wanted to bring it along so i could have it after meal at my grandma's place (in the end, the medication was not taken)

got to resist new year goodies cause they might worsen my cough. haiz... side dishes to go with the bee hoon were all fried. lol. no choice, got to eat. hope i don't grow fat or worsen my cough.

skip the details. went back to my grandma's place to have shark fin's soup. well, everytime i eat it, i'll pity the sharks. seriously. but well, it's expensive and tasty. lol. i prefer the crab meat within though. haha. added pepper without remembering that i'm still coughing. was like "it's hot" kind of thing.
then my mum and aunt were like "it's so salty" and my brother was "is it?" (in chinese). my answer was "a bit salty" probably cause my sense of taste is affected by my illness. lol. got to finish all the spring rolls even though i'm full. hope i don't grow fat.

reached home and my com was crappy. keep getting errors etc etc. no time to do virus scan either. was really fed up. found a trick to 1 of the games i was playing. should have realised earlier. haha. the bug's removed anyway.

got lots of things to do after i wake up and can't wait to meet up with Jeannel, Panda and Golden. lol. time to sleep. haha

P.S. ember, stop sleeping so early in the morning can? this can't go on when school starts you know :P take care of yourself and stay happy and healthy alright?

update

2009-01-24T23:51:00.000+08:00

sick a few days before chinese new year. what else can be good for me in the coming year?

went to the range and i was kind of late for everything today. don't really have time to train so just fired aboout 40 shots. not really that bad actually taking into consideration that i'm sick... haha...

rushed down to orchard to meet up with the pioneer batch of YJC AWC and i was late for 1 and a half hour. they were like waiting till i get my food. i felt so guilty. and well, my gastric problem arised... :( endured through and then i didn't go for the movie cause i really didn't feel well. didn't some stuff here and there before heading back home. bought quite a lot of stuff from comics connection so that makes the highest expense day. lol

played audi and sometimes switch with my sis cause she's more experienced than me. haha. she helped me with some of the missions especially those that need to clear at least 1 finishing move cause so far, i only managed to clear 1 finishing move out of so many finishing moves. haha.

update

2009-01-18T00:18:00.004+08:00

missed out lots of things. things changed and i know nothing. time seem to pass by slowly in camp but super fast when i'm outside. T.T

Firstly. i got to thank my best friend for smsing me everyday when i was in there. without my best friend's support, i wouldn't have been able to endure through most of the "hardships". furthermore, my best friend is willing to spend so much just to sms me (over a 100, maybe 200) in just 1 week. that's very bad of me too.

The people i miss will definately be my family, my best friend, and the people at the range. i miss training too. haha. been thinking about stuff going on at the range everyday. felt left out when they were having fun without me T.T . the first thing i did was actually to go over to the range. had dinner with my range friends and we were on trains that ends at tpy. haha. luckily we don't stay beyond tpy. haha.
I forgot to on my phone to tell my mum not to come so early so she was waiting for quite sometime outside and i was bad to ask her to bring my stuff back for me while i go for dinner. :(

school's monthly shoot yesterday and i went over to help out especially when some of the YJC shooters are not that experienced yet. all events ended at 8pm or so then we all went to have dinner outside. then "lao da" (as what the coaches name him as) sent the yishun ppl back home :D
golden was supposed to send Jeannel back home and i heard that they got lost somehow cause of a wrong turn. haha. thankfully they were back home safe.

luckily my resistance to poke is very strong. so i'm not always the victim of poke. haha. too bad for the others but i don't really poke them much. haha.

i feel kind of useless sometimes cause i wasn't really able to help my best friend cheer up when my best friend was upset over certain things. perhaps many things. even when i thought of ways to do so, i dared not execute them (in either words or action). i hope my best friend is all well now and also recovered from whatever illness. Really hope my best friend will always be happy even though i won't be able to be by my best friend's side. =(

off for NS

2009-01-05T23:56:00.002+08:00

off for NS

went out for pool with Jeannel, Jin Cai and Ying Jie at around 5 cause i was late meeting Jeannel due to some unforseen circumstances.
didn't expect myself to win so many games. haha. fang shui for some games actually. haha. :P

were like discussing where to have dinner for a long time and finally decided Fish & Co. by me. haha. got to thank them for being so supportive and didn't mind the travel. :D (shall not include what happen on the way)

had grilled calamari as starters and my main course is still new york fish and chips. lol.

for more details, do visit Jeannel's blog if she blogged about today. i'm gonna sleep to prepare for NS le. bye ppl. take care. Thanks for everyone's support.
thanks and sorry to Jeannel for using your blog post for 2 occasions XP

update

2009-01-04T20:49:00.009+08:00

let's just jump directly to HTNS BBQ

only ying jie came to train then waited with me from 3+. then Jeannel came and we waited for Max. we chatted for some time then hong seng called to ask where i am. (actually the chalet there got nobody he knows. something like that. then asked him to come HTNS to meet me. when he came we headed out to the chalet and found no one we know. called boss but she's driving and not such abt the details. so i called peng and she's not sure as well so i requested her to ask uncle lum for us. we got the info later that it's block 4. Thanks Peng.
no one was there so we went just went ahead and wanted to maybe settle down first and we found that the table was so clean and smooth that we decided to make it cleaner. played blackjack cause we had 5 ppl. haha. then played dai dee for a while i think. until uncle sandy, auntie roseline and erm, another lady lady came. i was like "are we supposed to go help them carry the stuff?". then there was a "go lor" or something along that line and we went over. lol

cleared the table a little to place the food stuff then th 5 youngsters went to a coffee shop and had drinks. Jeannel and i didn't order any drinks so we were watching TV. the others were as well. we didn't really chat if i remember correctly. should have thought of ways to let us all mix. after we were done, we headed back and kind of like walked yuan wang lu.
when we reached, uncle sandy already placed the charcoal formation then we were lighting the fire starter. the guys were like in charge to start the fire and Jeannel was asked to help with the food preparation.

due to training earlier on, my arm power was reduced by maybe 40% or more? ached after a short while of fanning. haha. then after quite some time, uncle lum was saying, "just have to fan slowly, it'll still burn" or something like that la. When auntie Jenny came, she made fun of me and ... ... ... ... and it was like very embarassing la... i wonder why ppl like to do matchmaking for me =.="
then nat msged maybe called and said she (maybe it's they) reached and hong seng and i went over. *should have just asked hong seng to go over* (to be elaborated). turned out that shu juan will be late =.=" my trick didn't work cause nat told shuj abt it. haiz

got a lot of issues when we got back to the chalet (do refer to Jeannel's blog. i don't want to remember. haha). i think i had enough of matchmaking sessions. haha. and believe it or not, i am still single... just like kraft

the rest, just refer to Jeannel's blog until i have time to resume. tio complain that i'm too cold. haha

now about today. forced myself up cause i had to work. slept for abt 4 hours only. mum drove me to work cause i can't be late today. had problems with work but shall not describe.
last day of work and several members came despite the late night due to the bbq. chatted with some of them etc etc. Jeannel came at around 2.30 to train and boss came around that time as well. i started training too. last day of training leh. but then the fanning during the bbq... arms were aching and shaking... didn't shoot well today. even formed a rear sight. Jeannel can be my witness... haha...

was supposed to go have prata with the others but golden didn't receive my sms, ying jie was busy and so i went to have prata with Jeannel. oh well, Jeannel did most of the talking cause i really have nothing interesting to share. if not, i can't express myself well. hope she doesn't mind accompanying a boreded fellow like me... haha.
very tired... the rest... if i can remember after getting some sleep...
played audition cause i was asked by a good friend too... kind of ... ... with the game but oh well... nvm... time to sleep but gotta settle some stuff first... lol...

P.S Jeannel, please don't blame me for "using" your blog post. meow?

HAPPY NEW YEAR

2009-01-01T00:51:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!!!
sorry to those who didn't get a reply from me after sending your new year wishes. the sms traffic is like even worse than the causeway that time when i went to Malaysia. my sms just can't get out...

well, chionging pt in the morning/afternoon then have to start preparing for NS. haha. got to prepare for the gunclub bbq as well.

kind of late now so i'll just stop here. ciao ciao...

*post other stuff in in the day if there's time*

update

2008-12-26T23:21:00.004+08:00

Merry Christmas to all (though i'm late). anyway, hope you guys enjoy the presents you received even if you don't, it was a public holiday right?
Had to work till 9pm on Christmas Eve while ppl were celebrating. missed the post Christmas event cause of work too. well, maybe i'm a workaholic?

put on new specs for work today and well, i seem to be clumsier with them on. probably not used to it. the frame is so thick that my new blinder can't fit well. busy busy busy... thought of 3 games for corporate shoot but the words just can't come out. well, that gives me more time to revise and improve on the games.

really need time for training. been like 2 or 3 days without training and i actually planned to train everyday except monday. can only do mental simulation when i have nothing to do. maybe try meditating to shut off from all thoughts but not stoning though. haiz...

went to the supermarket with the intention to window shop unless if what i always wanted to buy was on sale and it is (FINALLY!!). wanted to buy ruffles chips since like dunno how long ago. probably before prelims. well, there was this guy there who was like telling me it cost $3.05 and i thought he was asking. i shall do it in conversation form. (hope my translation is not that bad)
Man: it's $3.05
Me: ya
Man: it's nice meh?
Me: depends on personal preference
Man: why not buy other brand? they are cheaper and you'll get more
Me thinking "you got a problem with me buying what i want?" (but didn't answer anything)
*Man walked off*, *I went to the counter and saw that guy in queue again =.=" *
Man: buying for friends?
Me: No
Man: 1 person finish 2 packets?
Me: No la (actually i can but obviously not on the same day). for family
Man: your family got eat this?
Me thinking "what's your problem?!" but said: ya
Man: you can buy the Japanese branded chips at $2+ and it contains more. It also have flavours like Cheese, Pizza etc. (think he was talking about Calbee)
Me: No reply
Man: I let you queue in front
Me: don't need la (have a bad feeling about it)
*Man walked off suddenly*

like what the... is there a problem with me getting what i want? act friendly? or maybe i'm just being unfriendly... anyway, I just hate it when i'm buying something and a salesperson comes over to assist when i didn't ask for them. i don't blame them for doing their job but then i just feel that it becomes noisy and their recommendations are usually convincing but the price-wise? sometimes they just advertise stuff which i don't think it's nice. ok, i'm a weirdo. got a problem with that? haha. it's just that sometimes when you already can't decide, they come and bombard you with more products and you end up being unable to decide on more products.

got to go work. ciao ciao

update

2008-12-21T22:32:00.000+08:00

been starting my regular part-time job for a few days already. many things to remember and do. don't really like to do customer service kind of jobs but still, i'll do my best to do my job well.

my PB is currently 555. receive advice from all the coaches. haha. guess i'm just too dumb to understand or my brain just make me do what i think is the best for myself like how it have been for 2 and a half years since i'd started on Air Pistol.

Met Coach Zhang at the supermarket today. saw him at the MRT station yesterday. talk about coincidence. maybe i shouldn't hae approached him cause we started chatting about shooting, air weapons and live weapons, my shooting experience, other people's shooting experience, my training etc. although coach nigel asked me to switch what i'd been training and see which suits me better, i still want to stick to what i had been doing cause that was what both coach song and coach ma asked me to try out before they went back to their home country. of course, coach nigel did give me suggestions on how to train or improvise what i'd been training. for someone with a poor memory like me, i think it's best for me to not have an aiming area. then it's all rhythm (as what coach zhang said)

intend to cook pasta for my family tomorrow and then maybe bake cookies. if the cookies taste nice, maybe i'll wake up early on tuesday and then bake some for my coaches. gotta get my eyes checked, buy new specs, do housework... i think i need a timetable. so many things to do on my only off day but strange to say, i enjoy doing work. hopefully the enjoyment lasts. a lot of things to learn too. but then again, i don't think i'll ever be cooking any dishes that contains seafood. it's kind of like throwing that poor creature(s) in and cooking them alive. that's about the same as peeling prawn shells. kind of like skinning them and plucking their heads off. eeeww...
think i might just be able to kick away my gaming addict, have not been seriously playing games for quite some time already. it's more of to relax myself i think or when i have nothing much to do.

talked to James today and i do feel much better. lighten myself for quite a bit. gotta meet up with him soon. haha.

update

2008-12-19T00:50:00.001+08:00

got a new job and had a busy day. gotta sleep. it's gonna be another long day.

update

2008-12-16T23:54:00.004+08:00

well, nothing's really new today. don't wanna talk about it. it'll be talked about somewhere else if you really want to know. wrapped up the gifts this morning and they where filled with condensed water vapour. and i'm real bad at wrapping gifts. i can only wrap cube and cuboid shapes and not others. haiz...
well, brought the presents to the range but when to mini toons first to get something else. have yet to buy something for auntie jenny cause i couldn't find that shop.... argh... probably going on thursday. tomorrow shall be a long day.
reached the range at about 2.30 and didn't see any yj shooters and i thought they would be there early to prepare their stuff. waited till around 2.55 and jude came. he chatted with me a little about A levels but i asked him to prepare his stuff cause the lanes will be issued out if they are late. maybe he didn't hear it when i asked him to collect his rifle first. well, the lanes were really "given" to other ppl but it was unintentional. at least we got back the lanes. =D
several spoilt stuff and members who are not turning up. so what if there's H3? come for only 1 day? that's as good as asking the team to lose the nationals. not even the north zone award. and some equipments to be kept at the range and they won't be used... well, the remaining shooters will have to bring them back for CCA Bazaar...
started training later than planned cause i had some things to do. trained for about 1hr+ and i do feel improvement until a certain period of time when i felt tired and hungry. so packed up and settled some stuff with the yj shooters. went dinner with 2 coaches and another fellow pistol shooter. reached the range and was supposed to go train but i show my games suggestions to coach and 2 out of 4 of them can be considered. that's quite good. cause the problems of the others i thought of was the same as what they thought of. have to think of another game if possible and i have an idea. just need to think through about it 1st. like how it's going to go etc. have 2 versions actually.
played some mini shooting game and i lost. haiz... 1 pistol shooter vs 3 rifle shooters and my vision was already very blur. but nevermind, it sure was fun. was very nervous during the first shot though. at least we all had fun =D
The biscuits from Elken is really nice. that's the feedback i got. i haven had any as yet. gonna eat a few pieces tomorrow. miss it a lot. lol.
so many things to do and to think of. i hope things will go according to what i planned or just what i thought of. scared of something that might happen.
alright. time to sleep. probably a long day tomorrow.

update

2008-12-15T22:58:00.000+08:00

horrible day today. intended to go for a run in the morning but it was raining heavily around my area. so ended up doing pt. no mat on the ground so my back ached while doing sit-ups. skipped breakfast again. played pt for a while and my character kept dying cause of the character's inertia. ended up quitting game. and went to jump blog. after some time, i went to do the laundry as well as iron my pants which i would be using cause i'm going out to hunt for items. my brother bought lunch but i couldn't finish mine. even though it doesn't look like it, i do have a small appetite unless if it's under certain circumstances which i shall not elaborate.

went to orchard (taka) but couldn't really decide on what to buy. if they were selling what they sold last year, i would have gotten it but nvm. so i went to vivo and searched. the 1st place i went to was candy empire cause it was the nearest. window shopped and then went to giant to see if there's anything better. too bad, there wasn't any. went to L2 to look for toys cause some receivers are not supposed to eat too much. saw some prospective toys but they were ex and too small and i thought i should go look at other places for more. the other toys sold in vivo are much more ex than those that i saw earlier. so i carried on touring. wanted to go back to candy empire and a saw the vivo mart sign and went in. this portion was the 1 with cold storage and guardian instead of the giant only portion but i thought it was linked. i forgot the 2 are on different levels. (1 on L1 and the other on B2). ws walking in circles and guess what? i lost my way. probably cause i was too anxious and resulted in more haste, less work. took quite some time before i realised that i was on the wrong level. that was like my 2nd time going to vivo la... actually 3 but 1 time was only 1 level.
so went back to candy empire and got what i wanted after discussing with shuj and nat. haven bought 1 item yet cause i was broke. so went home. the journey took quite some time. reached home at 8+ and my stomach was using growl again. luckily my attack is quite high in the first place. so i managed to drag myself back home. was feeling weak at vivo though. probabaly cause i strained too much in the morning.
reached home and my brother was cooking his dinner. the soup was splurting out and i turned off the gas and i kena scolding. the lid was damaged in the first place and he accused me of breaking it. like wth!!
called my mum to find out where the wrapping was and found out that there wasn't enough. then she asked me if i had dinner, if not, join them. saw my brother eating his dinner and so i didn't tell him.
after dinner, i told my mum that my brother didn't go for work today and i kena scolding again. it's like, "is he supposed to dump his food and join us?". maybe it's more approapriate to inform him as well. couldn't hold my temper at 1 time. it's like i reached earlier than my parents and i get scolding, forgot to water plants and i got scolding again. what about the 1 who was at home all the time?
i have to go for training, do work, housework, where got so much time to think of other things. i do have my own problems as well.

forget it... hope tomorrow will be a better day.

a series of unfortunate events

2008-12-14T21:10:00.001+08:00

a series of unfortunate events occured today. it's like the worst day ever compared to spongebob's best day ever.

oh well, work up at 6am today to prepare for HTNS monthly shoot. had diarrhoea in the morning and i have not had breakfast. think it was last night's dinner. had milo for "breakfast". actually to last till i reach gombak.

well, left house and it was raining. almost missed the bus but thanks to my speed, i didn't miss it. reached gombak, bought the double cheese which is actually hotdog bun with melted cheese on top. my usual is that + 1 cheese stick. if not, peanut butter waffle. shouldn't eat peanut butter waffle before shoot as it'll bring me negative effect during when shooting. the double cheese was horrible. nothing like how it was when i had them previously. maybe it was left overnight? missed the 945 bus and walked to the range. was still raining and was kind of drenched. reach the range at around 820 or 840. can't really remember. so i went to the washroom to wash my hair and the hand dryer on level 1 was not working. tough luck... as least i saw tsu cher on my way to level 2. don't have to wait for the range to be opened. haha. dried my hair with tissue paper eventually. then a while later, uncle jimmy came. so didn't have to wait to draw out weapon.

here comes the trouble again. i spent like 5mins just to open the r10 tin... and the air con was like... not on... throughout the shoot i was sweating. took more time today. probably about 45min or so including 8 sighting shots. the 1st 5 shots of the sighting was rubbish and the next 3 were all 10 so i started. used a sighter as 1st competition shot and hit a 10. actual 1st shot, 8... one of the shots in 1st 2 series got a 7 cause the shot fired off before i reached my aiming area. didn't dare to do that thereafter. didn't dare to fire off several shots. 3rd series was the worst. my "zi xiang" was ok but then my feet felt weird and i was swaying a lot. when i concentrate to stop my body swaying, my arm was moving. rested my arm for a while but no effect. usually my left heel will hurt but this time round, it was my right heel. no coach around to ask so had to depend on myself. at my 40+th shot, my vision blurred and i hit a 8. maybe 2 of them. there goes my 95. got 93 for last 2 series. 91 91 88 92 93 93 i think. most ppl's score drop at the end so i'm just a minority. guess what, my 3rd series was reflected to be 82 at the scoring room and i saw that. haha. i knew i wouldn't score that bad and 88 was bad enough. i should have min 92 or 93 now. ended up 4th and ppl with like 6+ or 9+ handicap got into top 3 and my 2.55 got me 4th. lol... at least i should be able to get into CAT B with 553, 550 and 548. i have to get 560 by feb. will train 3hrs at least everyday if i have to.

had the catered lunch and went to have lunch with my godparents and so on(thought the lunch was cancelled when i didn't get a reply within the hour). was caught in the rain when i exited the HTNS entrance and it was a long way to their house. ran there and was almost hit by a car. there was a blind spot and another car blocking my path. phew.

my godbrother chated with me a lot about what course to choose and possible future prospects. well, i can't really decide until i find out more about the faculties. took bus with him till clementi cause he's going to NUS library i think. at least can chat longer instead of going jurong east int on my own. complained to him a lot of things la. haha

took the wrong train at clementi and ended up in dover so had to take the reverse side. had seats at jurong east and i fell asleep until khatib when the train just left... had to cross over at yck. had several bad experiences along my way back and i regretted taking my specs off. shall not elaborate. missed the bus at the bus interchange and had to wait but i chose to walk home.

reach home and wanted to run but it was drizzling so i thought i should change my plans and play basketball instead. the court seemed to be empty but my basketball was not fully pumped so i had to look for the pump but couldn't find it. wasted like 10-15mins to find it and get the ball pumped. by the time i was going to the court, it was filled with ppl so i headed back home... went to buy dinner in the end. asked for 2 sets from the western food store (maybe i didn't say 2. can't remember) but i got only 1 so i went to buy 2 peanut butter waffle. reached home and went to do some skipping since i didn't have the chance to go running. the skipping rop was coiled and so deformed that i have to completely open my arms to avoid contact with the rope. it didn't work cause the coil was real bad. skipped for about 5-10 mins only. (gotta do sit-ups before sleeping). almost couldn't finish the waffles as i always had poor appetite after exercising. until now, it's not raining... haiz... hopefully it rain soon so it won't rain tomorrow morning.

going to run to train stamina tomorrow. my leg muscles will surely ache cause training stamina mean run until my legs cannot tahan. doing laundry after that. buy/cook lunch (cooking only if both my brothers are at home). going to shop for christmas present in the afternoon. run again in the evening if my legs "says" it's ok. maybe go online after doing the laundry.

... post ...

2008-12-14T17:52:00.001+08:00

The rules:Bold the statements that are true to you
Italise the statements that you WISH are true
Leave the Fibs alone
Then, stab 5 guys to do the same test.

I miss somebody right now.
I dont watch TV these days.
I own lots of books
I wear glasses or contact lenses
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy
I curse sometimes. (but no vulgarities. only like "crap" etc)
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someone's bones. (someone broke mine...)
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free
I need money right now.
I love sushi,
I talk really, really fast. (sometimes only cause usually i don't talk)
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent (maybe i do have 1 but if it's hidden, how would i know?)
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone (depends)
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop
I enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop then eat.
I don't hate anyone. (the 1 who broke my bones? think it was dislocate)
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months. (i stopped when i glow red after drinking 1 glass or less. wine only, no beer for me)
I rejected someone before. (some project proposal such as camp proposal)
I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life. i had an idea but i think i'm gonna switch)
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before. (if it's the 1 in chem lab, i didn't)
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza. (i just love pizza as long as it's not very spicy and have no seafood toppings)
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it. (but i don't watch on a regular basis)
I have dated a close friends's ex. (i have never dated anyone :P)
I am happy at this moment! (after underperforming during today's monthly shoot? if i did this a few days/week ago, i would)
I'm obsessed with guys
I study for tests most of the time. (last minute?)
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met. (how many ways are there?)
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge. (if it's stairs, i did. at home)
I love sea turtles. (i prefer smaller ones)
I spend ridiculous money on makeup. (i'll look like a ghost if i did)
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream. (OLYMPIC GOLD)
I'm proficient in a musical instrument. (i can play some but not proficient)
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules. (i'll die without water, oxygen and food)
I went college out of state.
I like sausage.
I love kisses. (hershey's kisses - cookies and cream :P)
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours. (white, blue and black)
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes. (size of the object matters)
I can't whistle
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake's slither. (never tried. it's ridiculous.)
I have ridden/owned a horse. (only rode on the 1 in Genting Highlands)
I still have every journal I've ever written in. (only a few entries)
I can't stick to a diet. (never tried. but i can if i'm saving $)
I talk in my sleep. (i never tried recording it. who on earth knows if he/she sleep talks?)
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions. (it doesn't always work)
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with. (can i count myself in? cause that's the person i can't stand working with. lol)
I am a caffeine junkie.
I know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions. (i never counted)
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
Used to collect bread labels, used stamps.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I still have my primary school sticker collection.
I like a person of the same sex. But I'm straight, just so you know
(:I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie.

I will tag:
freedomxjustice
JX
Jing
ah xiang
whoever wants to do this thingy

Katekyo Hitman Reborn 10 English Sub 1/3

2008-12-13T18:16:00.001+08:00

At the Jap restaurant

2008-12-12T18:55:00.001+08:00

went to Malaysia a few days back but i'll just post about the jap restaurant i went.
the food is very nice. appetiser alone is already very well made.

the left side is fish. i ate of 1 before i took the photo :P
forgot what the middle 1 is called but it's very nice too.

Soup with some shroom and clam?

Raw stuff

the lemon thingy contains wasabi

Jap Food

2008-12-12T18:54:00.002+08:00

Scallop with sauce made from egg york inclusive of other stuff which i do not know

Now you see it... ...

Now you don't... ...

Here comes the main course. rice was added so it might not look presentable as expected. side dish on the other plate which i forgot to zoom in on it.

Clear some of the added rice. better now?

Jap food (dessert)

2008-12-12T18:54:00.001+08:00

Here comes the dessert. should have on flash but the image looks ok on the camera screen.

there was another dish (probably another dessert but was too slow to capture it's image before chopsticks started to displace them)

Katekyo Hitman REBORN! Ending 4

2008-12-12T17:58:00.001+08:00

Tales of the Abyss Opening (Japanese)

2008-12-12T17:57:00.001+08:00

Lambo

2008-12-04T01:16:00.001+08:00

Lambo peeing

2008-12-04T01:14:00.001+08:00

Katekyo hitman reborn op2

2008-11-06T21:52:00.001+08:00

tales of destiny 2 op

2008-10-27T22:41:00.001+08:00

Tales of the Abyss Opening (english)

2008-10-27T19:16:00.001+08:00

2008-10-06T23:12:00.000+08:00

Went to national library in the morning to study. found out that there was a plan and eventually i just went along with it. can't make their hard work fail right? wasn't very fruitful today cause i did not study geog so i couldn't really answer the geog questions. did some chem MCQ though cause teaching another classmate. some questions were too tough for me as well. haha.

went off in the afternoon for lunch but the dining places were either too expensive, not valued for money or no seats. so we decided to go to jack's place in Marina Square. initially was supposed to be seoul garden but jq and hf already had lunch. ordered set lunch. sirloin steak. first time dining in jack's place and probably 1st time eating a sirloin steak. ordered well done instead of the common medium rare. i don't like raw food. should have gotten chicken cutlet student meal. well, it's over anyway. feel very bad that kc had to pay for my meal. i wanted to pay it myself but then he insisted. maybe i can give him some big christmas present or something. he paid the most for my birthday present and he planned everything. he probably paid full for the cake as well. kind of guilty. hf smeared some cake on my face as usual of what she'll do. the cake seemed to have melted or something cause it looked 'fragile'. then after that we went to play bowling. still scored less than 100 as usual. then after 1 game we went to the arcade to play. played street fighter but that version cannot use special move and hard to combo... marvel vs street fighter the machine i used had spoilt button and the megaman i was using can't use certain skill... so lost to fred. datona i got 2nd then 1st. haha. crash once for each of the rounds and first 1 was done by someone... played time crisis 3 with kc and it was kind of hard cause i seldom play that and not very used to it. ended quite soon also. played time crisis 2 with kc also and he didn't want to finish everything cause he was sweating. i continued with 3 more credits if i'm not wrong.

that marks the end and i had sore arms and fingers. haha. keep losing at mario kart cause of pure unluckiness. haiz...

update

2008-10-01T17:42:00.003+08:00

1 of my buddies (a buddy, a partner) just left without a word. it happened so suddenly and i was very shocked. dunno what to say now. should have organized more gatherings and lan...

not able to attend his wake nor the other procedures but i do hope he'll rest in peace and his family will be able to go through all this and kan de kai. it is a great loss but there's nothing we can do now.

Cherish the people around you before it's too late to regret.

Class Outing?

2008-09-25T20:47:00.000+08:00

Been trying to plan for class "outing" after graduation service. but it's not easy getting all to agree to something. of course there were ppl who obviously wouldn't attend and keep trying to create problems. why the heck did i want to do this anyway??!
Lunch? some say it's not fun. BBQ/Chalet with BBQ? some say they can't stay out late (understandable). either which, it's more like clique outing instead of class outing...
if lunch only, where? it's not easy coming out with the places and we have to take into account halai and vegetarian food. and when asked for suggestions, i get nonsense back... so how the heck am i supposed to plan it well?
Chalet... can't even get confirmed list of ppl staying overnight and confirmed list of ppl going for BBQ... plus we have no idea what time the graduation service would end as well...
Probably gonna give up on this if it still can't be settled by tomorrow...

update

2008-09-01T20:13:00.002+08:00

been long since i'd last updated. well prelims wasn't as good as expected. only in the sense that i thought i could pass my chemistry but i didn't. hope i could pass for geog but things doesn't look well after teacher went through the paper with us in class. oh well, gotta buck up within this 1month+ time...

farewell function last saturday. it didn't seem very well done but based on the number of people they have for the event, it's very good already. hate the speech segment. didn't like to use the mic so didn't use lah. haha. forgot to wish the TOs happy teachers' day. only recalled a while after heading back to my seat. Mr Thomas came and we chatted a little. haha. wonder if i'll be invited next year cause the squad i'd been taking will graduate next year. a bit of this and that. good and bad things with mainly the good 1s. the bad 1s are well, i don't think there's any other than the theme cause i really didn't know what to wear for the event. sure had fun on that day and since it was the "last time" i'm gonna be there, i joined in many phototaking moments... haha...

hoping for something to happen... but that's a secret. haha. say out le then not fun liaoz...

more unlucky events

2008-08-02T23:43:00.004+08:00

and so, i'd decided to go with my mum to watch the NDP preview. I just don't understand why i'm always 'asked' to do things the others last minute does not want to. my brother was 'booking' the tickets initially but on friday he didn't want it if i'm not wrong. ya ya, i'm still single so the i'm definitely last on the list. even if i got both tickets, there's no one i have in mind to invite anyway.

back to the subject. 1st of all the walk to the actual place was very long cause of road blocks and had to walk back to get in... 2ndly, the weather was damn hot... no umbrella or anything to use as a shield but nvm, as if i wasn't exposed to the scorching sun before. just that the feeling was worse than usual cause of the stupid sunburn i had yesterday. then, i failed the security check cause my belt had a metal buckle. crap... then while queueing to move to the seats, the person behind me opened her umbrella which hit me continuously... the first blow was dealt on the head though. the worst thing was... 1 of the drinks in my funpack was like damaged weeks ago... the leaking fluid was of course obvious when the other stuff were being removed. next, there was a stale smell and some black substance which i suspect was some mould or the decomposition of the paper carton... many of the contents including the discount coupons were no longer usable. then the person sitting behind me. well, my back was damn irritated although i was already taking the front half of my seat. any further and the person in front will get in contact with my knee. the view from my side wasn't that fantastic either. will post the photos to elaborate once my com is revived. but you can always ask me to show it to you in school... and the one regrettable thing is, i didn't get to capture many nice stunts cause it took quite some time for my phone cam to load, focus and the final shot. most of the aircraft stunts were missed. haiz... be sure to catch it on TV =D

Anyway, i'd thought over some things while waiting for the whole show to start. If your aim is to get my friends away, go ahead. it's not as though i have not experienced the life of a loner. eventually, whoever is left to stand by and support me will be what people termed as . ppl like kenneth and "ally family" had proved to be so. haha. and they always were although at times i tend to piss them off with lame jokes and being indirect. thanks guys. and girls. lol.

update

2008-08-02T13:06:00.002+08:00

started writing in a diary. lol. seems that i trust objects more than human. lol. dead things will never backstab you. unless somehow they're given life lah... ~.~

a series of mishap had befallen onto me or so it seems to be. oh well, i can't stop ppl from saying what they want to but if it's me they're after, just target directly onto me and not on anyone else. can you stop saying things that are not true and stop exaggerating things? things that seem to be happening (your viewpoint) does not mean it is really happening. if such thing can happen, only God can do it and you're not.
many other bad things happened too. all the way since june... i wonder what have i done to bring me such ill luck. maybe karma?

stilling pondering over whether i should go watch NDP preview or not. haha. 1hr left to decide.

other things shall enter the book which no one else is allowed =P

update

2008-07-26T22:44:00.001+08:00

took nanyang concept test today for phy and chem. was terrible. maybe cause i didn't prepare. haha. there goes $20... haiz, wanted to go taka to buy some stuff but forgot to bring my voucher. maybe next week.

some idiot stole the nut of my bike's rear wheel. no wonder it went flat so soon... entered my own world again after reaching home. maybe it was after dinner. was so tired after the test... haha. fantasies are always nice and almost perfect but for some reasons, they never turn into reality. just like a kid will fantasize abt having wings but it'll never happen. so many things i hope will happen but they'll surely not happen. haha.

That all for today, thank you and have a nice day... lol...

update

2008-07-25T22:15:00.000+08:00

Update a little regarding last sat's bbq. (pics in my facebook). planned to go over to ecp earlier to cycle but guess what? people coming late. well, i waiting for abt 1hr from the time i reached till the time we headed towards the bus interchange.

Bad things do come in a bundle. when we were going to reach, it rained... there goes our cycling plan... might not be able to carry out the bbq either...
took a long walk over to pit 42 and on our way there, the caterer called and asked us to hurry. should have rented the bike to get there sooner. the stuff are there and the situation was kind of "chaotic". sort of like don't really know what to do exactly. so kenneth and i set up the bbq pit with the charcoal and fire starter. He and his "trust me". haiz... took quite some time to light up the fire starters... too even longer for the charcoal to start burning partially due to the damped pit. then i rearranged the arrangement of the charcoal and start the process all over again. It's tiring to fan the charcoal till the fire's stable. haha. we started cooking and the other members were like late? nowhere to be seen... it's like we're preparing the food for ourselves...

so what happened next? it rained in the middle of the event and we had to finish cooking those that were in process... bbqing in the rain, how cool...? and damped too. we used our umbrellas to shield the food and of course, there were drips here and there. i had a hard time trying to shield the drip. and kenneth came only once to transport the food and never to return... we needed someone to help transport the food lah...

After the last piece was finally cooked, we shifted to a nearby shelter. whatever happened next i'll just skip.

wasn't able to take the last bus so took cab... midnight fare somemore... $30.60... nat and i were the last to alight. she wanted me to alight last but i didn't. maybe i should have just alighted with HS? doesn't matter... the way back was kind of unfamiliar cause it was kind of dark so didn't really recognise the way. haha. but got back anyway. oh well, if anything were to happen, i'll just have to put up a defensive stnace or just run if the situation is real bad... haha.

That's all for now. all the best to my classmates for 'A' Levels and those who i know and are taking 'A's this year. 'O' Levels too. in other words, all the best to whatever you're doing.

[al:斗牛要不要ep]
s.h.e 你最近还好吗
斗牛要不要ep
词:姚若龙曲:林迈可(michael lin)
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music
挑一张耶诞卡写上满满祝福的话
地址写的是心底
你能不能收到它
天有点冷风有点大
城市宁静而喧哗
这一个冬天我得一个人走回家
问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜里回声变得好大
有没有什么好方法
让寂寞更听话
你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念里挣扎
你说会记得我还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发

有再多的牵挂都已没有权利表达
旧情人给的问候
比陌生人还尴尬
昨天远了明天还长
回忆模糊但巨大
这样的深夜眼泪要怎样不流下
问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜里回声变得好大
有没有什么好方法
让寂寞更听话
你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念里挣扎
你说会记得我还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发

你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念里挣扎
你说会记得我还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发

update

2008-07-23T22:34:00.000+08:00

be back in december

update

2008-06-30T21:17:00.000+08:00

block test over but results are not good at all. managed to pass chem with 50 but maths and physics sure fail with U. less than 10 people in the whole cohort pass maths...

went for training regularly as usual and signed up for member already. almost 100% can get lane liao. haha. did electronic test again yesterday and "learnt" a new technique. didn't believe my own eyes. haha. only worry now is time left to train. only tomorrow and probably wednesday. confirm is just for convenience sake and rather let us underperform... haha. have to make good use of the last or last 2 trainings. if not, i can never master my "new technique".

gain enlightenment during math. was "meditating" and the words of the 2 China coaches who coached me in 2007 and 2008 combined together and i realised that they were talking abt the same thing. just that i only realised today... should have "meditated" earlier. lol. hopefully i can master the technique tomorrow or at least 50% mastery. haha.

update

2008-06-15T09:55:00.001+08:00

NUS invitational shoot's over but training's not. scored 552/600 and was lagging 1st position by 2 point. only if i had scored a ten instead of 8 for my last shot. am disappointed but then again, no point crying over spilled milk right? same goes for team event. only if we could swap our last shooter, we would have gotten 1st. but for now, aim for nationals shoot!!

been travelling a lot, between NP camp, competition lecture, weapon transfer and the competition itself. really got tired out but that's not an excuse for underperforming. still have not gotten used with switching between HomeTeam range and Safra range. spent a lot of time on sighting... "talking" to myself to much also caused some distraction.

Block test coming soon too. have not started anything and this cannot carry on. probably concentrate on math and chem and maybe geog. i still need to train...

update

2008-06-03T21:02:00.001+08:00

training had been hectic... 4hrs per training, 4 times a week... will be abt 6hrs including travelling time. so roughly around 5-11... don't even have time for tutorials... and the next day, sleepy during lessons...
although training schedule is chaotic, at least there's some results of me improving. but i do envy other JCs. they don't seem to have lessons cause their training time can be during the earliest slot at 10 i think.

was pissed off looking at the participant list of the NUS invitational shoot. it's like there's only 1 from our school... i strongly sense that it's late submission or something...

interhouse badminton today... wonder why i lost... maybe i underestimated my opponent... and besides that, i'm too short... missed a lot of shots or the rim of my racket barely touched it... oh well... it's over... played too much today... my wrist hurts now and i do not have full control over my fingers... don't think i can write... haiz... nationals shoot and A levels are approaching... time to buck up... idiot...

finally found the song i wanted... haha... been "by-passing" it so many times...

update

2008-05-24T11:17:00.001+08:00

Let's just skip the old stuff so i'll just update on yesterday's event...
Took the GP BT yesterday and it was "... ..." Paper 1 was still ok but i forgot to answer to the question. the question asked for far do you agree but throughout my 807-word essay, neither "agree" nor "disagree" appeared anywhere. think my content mark will drop way below the erm, bottomless pit?
Paper 2 was horrible. after reading through a few times, i still don't get what the passages were talking abt. spent like half an hour trying to understand the passage but gave up eventually. wasn't able to answer like 2 out of 1 question? was tempted to write "i don't understand what the darn passages are talking about" or "Idon't understand the freaking passages" for AQ but didn't... i had no stand to agree with whichever author cause i simple don't understand the passages... i suppose i'll get a 'U' grade this time round...

Went to mac for "lunch" with some classmates. didn't buy much cause asked mum to cook my lunch. had bad experience. never attend group lunch in her presence... haha... went home and played some computer games, had late lunch cause training starts at 6 to 9 and i had to leave home by 4.45. missed the bus again... *sigh*
reach the range to see KL and CS there waiting for who-knows-what. KL said he waited since 2pm and i was, what the heck was my sms for? cause i sent to all team members that training is from 5.45 to 9...
performance was bad cause my eyes were tired. tear a little at different points during the training cause they were simply too dry... still kind of far from my goal but i'll persevere and do whatever it takes... this competition is too impt to me... the most unfortunate thing is my "ulti" had lost it's effect like my "special move" for 1/2 court bball... elbow joint hurt at the start of training but i don't know why...
stopped training at 8 cause we were only required to train 2hrs at the firing line... only managed to fire off 180shots but my aim was at least 200 per training with all shots scoring 9 or 10. only if i can keep everything almost constant...
wanted to do math S4 while waiting but then didn't bring notes and i'd forgotten the GC commands... so brought hw for ntg... left range at abt 9 and dinner group shrunk to 3... as expected, CS was around, KC was not... haha... new trend =P
went to the prata place but then we waiting over 10 min but no one attended to us. even ppl who came later were attended to. we even signaled to the "waiters" there but we were like ignored? even our tables were not cleared... so eventually we went to mac...
shall not mention more cause i'm lazy too... =P

anyway, training for me will be tuesday to friday 4-8 even if minimum requirement is <4 trainings per week... have to balance my time well... hopefully i can still stay awake during the following day's lesson... official training time is 6-10. will do dry firing earlier. and do homework after training. i have to keep the equipments after training... that's my duty as quarter master anyway... haiz... packed dinner every night... haha... maybe sometimes i'll get cup noodles for dinner...

Update

2008-04-08T12:29:00.001+08:00

Math retest... are we supposed to memorise answers instead of getting the concepts? 80% is quite ridiculous. and we have to spend so much time on this and no time on our tutorial then you scold also... so what do you exactly want? other subjects' tutorial also gave up just to study for the test... prob dunno how to do you keep saying it's simple but we don't want to try. but do you know some of us really tried?

Geog was like... cause went through block test and other stuff so only went through 1 tutorial... physics... no comments... ST wasn't in school so had relief teacher... didn't prepare for chem... argh!!

went orchard to get part 2. part 1 was was acquired last week... in the end still didn't tell eric what part 1 was. =P
could have went over earlier but some guy blocked my path and i ended up being unable to get onto the train...
took to marina bay and back after parting with eric. fell asleep but received smses that woke me up at around yck area. woke up and saw a pregnant lady. didn't give up seat cause was too cramp to exchange position. was wondering why the other ppl nearby did not give up their seats. gave up my seat at khatib after the train stopped. should have gestured her to the seat cause someone else rushed in immediately after i came out. i stared at her for a while then after a few seconds, she stood up and gave the seat to the pregnant lady. maybe she noticed and not because of my staring. haha. my sis wanted part2 but i refused. going to check if it's intact later. had quite a pleasant day today except for not doing homework. haha. thank God for letting me receive some wonderful messages. hope that all the receipients of the mail will continue to stay strong in their walk. will post in some other day. =)

Update

2008-04-01T23:33:00.000+08:00

人参苦，人生更苦。。。 4 block test results are out already... and all are 'U's... need to wake up and clear my mind of all the nonsense soon... even if they are not nonsense, it's not for me to bother anymore... doing so much things will not get recognition, i'll only get time not spent on my studies that's all... suppose i have done enough already... i'm not gonna care anymore even if it's worrying me... seeing no point in doing so much... was trying to settle so many stuff but yet it all just seemed to be my fault... i'm not having holidays now and i have to settle all these... and on top of that, it's my 'A' Level year... once failed considered gone...

everyday reach home late... need the time to finish homework but i spent it all on these stuff and all i get in return is yuan yan, yuan yan and more yuan yan...

finally submitted PWS 27 and tutorial 8.2... need to complete 8.3, thermochem tutorial and A.C circuit tutorial today... still have GP essay to complete... 11+ now lah...

celebrated Feb to April 4th ppl's birthday today... Don't really have the atmosphere but it's the thought that count... problem is we had to stuff ourself with so much food... haha... some ppl didn't really cooperate so only left a few of us eating as much as we can... haha...

math night lecture today... 3 hrs "break" before the lesson... was at area outside bookshop cause Jolene wanted to photocopy Chem tutorial questions i think. zul and cas were there as well... they took photos of the cake and themselves... haha... i was asked as well but sorry, just couldn't smile... anyway, can send it to me so i can see how awful i look? haha... was then waiting for some classmates to decide whether they want to go for the night lesson or not... after quite some time then it was decided that some of us go and see how effective the night lesson was... if it's beneficial then they'll go for subsequent sessions... went canteen to do GP essay with Jolene and Zul... most of the time was spent chatting though i did the GP essay and chatted at the same time... lol... was raining at around 6pm so i didn't want to go out for dinner... asked cas to buy for me though while i stayed to rush the essay... forgot a lot of the examples i wanted to include... haha... heard from someone that he/she heard that the lecture will only start at 7.15pm... then at 7pm, Guo Dong came running over to tell us lecture already started... was so shocked... haha... and my dinner had not arrived... left concluding paragraph lor... haiz... but no choice...
went in audi for the lecture... dan, zx and cas went in in the middle of it with dan holding on to my 2 double cheeseburger and sm's apple pie... i did eat in the audi though... haha... waited till the break at around 8.20 b4 i went for quick bites... ate too fast and had hiccups... lol... the lecture lasted till about 9.10pm but not all the components were talked abt... wasn't able to focus throughout the lesson... been a long day...

Reached home and have to settle CCA stuff again... gotta go do homework now... tomorrow need to settle CCA CIP and other CCA affairs... LORD, please grant me strength and walk with me through these and the many other obstacles and challenges you gave me... Feel like giving up on hope already but...

Update

2008-03-22T20:30:00.001+08:00

Block test is used to block our minds... That's why we always have mind block during the tests... had mind block during so many of the papers... GP, Physics and Math... Was too tired for Chem paper... Now Geog but had not started revision... Have to go full force on revision tomorrow...

CC training on monday and thursday does not really look prospective... but their performance today was wonderful... might even get to finals i think...

Watched #1 Rule... don't really like some parts of it... but overall it's fine...

update

2008-03-01T14:07:00.002+08:00

NTU shoot over. didn't do very well... haiz... but at least i'm still top in N-zone? probably cause other schools didn't send their best shooters?

A lot of things happened. or maybe i just feel that there's a lot... i'm very tired of all the things i need to do. more or less mentally drained already.\

Physics and Chem test next week... tons of tutorials and assignments undone... need to stop the snowball asap....

quick update

2008-02-25T00:13:00.002+08:00

NTU invitational shoot this coming wednesday. it's like a sure lose competition but no matter what, i'll still push on to be best in 'A' division or at least still top in North Zone. hope i won't under perform

Good job for Campcraft Boys team. though wasn't really happy with the flagstaff cause they didn't do what was taught. but it's ok since they're under stress also. great job though.

will update again after competition

Update...

2008-01-20T00:22:00.000+08:00

Got back block test results. as expected, i was blocked. failed both math and chem... i suppose i'll be failing all the subjects... I knew how i would score after doing the papers...

missed wednesday's training cause
1. I didn't know there was training initially
2. I didn't go over after knowing for some reasons which i won't say

missed friday's training as well... got carried away chatting over dinner and ended up not having enough time for training as the average journey to the range from yishun is 1hour. haha... so no choice... going for training with kenneth later in the day. hope he won't oversleep of what...

Went for monthly shoot yesterday... didn't have the feeling for the shoot and was unexpectedly nervous... was a bit shaky during preparation time but perfectly ok when sighting. out of the 5 shots, 3 on 9 and 2 on 10... all 5 were close to each other... lol...
and there comes first shot... hand was shaking a lot... and there goes... only 8...
didn't have the feel throughout the shoot... my positioning was ever changing and the position of my sight with respect to the target was no different... quite a lot of 7 and 8s and 10s can be counted with 10 fingers i guess... as always, i finished everything in half an hour and was frustrated cause i need to wait for all the shooters to finish before the results are out... there was one guy who spent the full 1hr45min sparingly and i had to wait for 1hr15min for him...
and so the results were out... i got 531/600... quite unexpected also lah... but then it's still not good enough... i just don't seem to be able to keep my mind clear throughout the shoot...

went to pastamania for lunch... pocket have another hole once again. the pizza base was drenched... but just ate lor... it has a "unique" taste as well... lol... didn't put enough cheese though... haiz...

school started

2008-01-06T16:10:00.000+08:00

wah, 1st week of school got so many assignments already... got 7 in my inventory. haha... 1 of it is due on tuesday but then the geog assignment is crazy... 4 readings for just 1 tutorial... dunno how to finish it... haha... well, better sleep now and resume work tomorrow...

Happy New Year

2008-01-02T14:31:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year to all... New Year can be the most dreadful day as it marks the end of school holidays or at least the ending of the holidays. School starting tomorrow but don't have the mood nor the completed homework. lol... been playing and dunno what else... been spending a lot of time thinking through certain stuff and well, things seem to have been stabilised. Thank God for that. Timetable doesn't look good again. either short days with many breaks or long days with short breaks. i wonder why... and PE on friday last lesson... that's the worst thing that can happen... oh well, hope things get better if there's a timetable change next term...

Update!!!

2007-12-26T02:17:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to all.

Thanks Guo Dong. lolz... hope you had fun with orientation stuff.

Have not done much of the holiday assignment. well, been playing and going for CCAs etc. very tired and games just doesn't seem to be able to play finish. lol... but then got to start on holiday assignment and revision soon. if not later block test fail liao saturday surely will have ssp... maybe weekdays also have... if kena ssp then won't be able to train the teams for Campcraft competition.

don't really know what to say already. enjoy the rest of the holidays.

Update!!!

2007-11-30T15:49:00.000+08:00

long time no update... but it's like does it matter? like nobody come... even if have, can at least tag or not? haha. Busy since school term ended. ok well, i was already busy BEFORE school term ended. only free days are monday, tuesday and weekends now... weekends burned sometimes also...

So far still no news about work attachment but receive a call which says i'm shortlisted for a job interview... the problem is, WHEN ON EARTH DID I EVER APPLY FOR A JOB??? Kenneth also got the call... really dunno how it came about lah... maybe going to look at their display or whatever it is... maybe will reject it though... can't really find the time...

Never once went for Class CIP... Sure will be guilty but can't help... 1st 1 was on a Sunday and it was my Church's 10th anniversary so I had to go... 2nd was due to CCA and I don't want to risk missing the training time... 3rd time cause i still have CCA and this time it's full day... 9am till 9pm... haiz...

Still have CCA CIP and I'm doing for both my CCAs... my deadline is almost up also... haiz...

Many other things to 烦 about but i don't want to say what... really very tired of things and life... some things just can't go on how it is going now... can't decide lah... give up? or push on?

Haiz...

2007-11-09T06:48:00.000+08:00

Promos over, results out and I'm promoted... dunno why others are rejoicing but i'm not... why must there be so many things happening that's affecting my life? why is it that it doesn't snow in Singapore? ok, it's geological stuff... i need something to cool and calm myself now. I'm certainly doing too much, more than what i can handle... and things which probably i shouldn't have cut in to do etc... why do i trust others so easily? why do i always jump into conclusion so quickly? why do i not dare ask and then assume, getting the wrong information in the end? have to put an end to all these but am i able to do so?

Phew... ...

2007-11-08T12:15:00.000+08:00

Results finally out. Well, they were out on monday... didn't remember to blog abt it. haha. I'm successfully promoted to year 2.
My grades for H2s are as follows: Chemistry B, Physics D, Mathematics D
Grades for H1s: Geography E, General Paper E
Total A Level Points: 57
The A Level Points still very low... must get at least 65 i think...
Dunno why but i'm hoping for my job attachment application to fail. Maybe cause like that i can do more things ba... haha... but then again the job attachment is only a few people can go de... Haiz...

ARGH!!!

2007-11-05T14:53:00.000+08:00

So much had happened since the previous post... well, had been preparing performance for PHS Open House. reaching home late and all... resulting in sleeping late so in the end can't concentrate during lessons. Although it's over, there are still many things that needs to be done like CCA camp, CIP, CCA matters etc... So stop asking me to play can?

Results coming back tomorrow. Very scared but then it's already over... I just hope to be able to get promoted then chiong from now on. *sigh* Guo Dong, stop saying that you're scared that you'll retain... If you retain, probably the whole class except Daniel will retain or expelled... will post back the good new tomorrow... So if it's bad news i wouldn't even have the mood to post...

So that means that today is the last day i can enjoy? However, I'm pretty upset, worried over a lot of stuff lah... then busy with stuff too... argh!! Father, please help me through. Before the results come, we want to get it back as soon as possible. When it's so near the result release, I rather not get it back for fear of failing to be promoted... Better stop talking abt it.

Why do people always ask me to share present for so-and-so's birthday and I never ever get from anyone? well, except for Uths who bought me Birthday presents and celebrated it with me last year. That's the first time anyone other than my family ever celebrated my birhtday with me. There was even 1 year, maybe more than that, that my dad actually banned any celebration for my birthday. That year I was very touched cause my mum bought a mini cake for me so that my dad will not find out. Why do bad things always come to me and i'm treated though i don't belong here?

If you know that this part is meant for you, well, I suppose you won't visit my blog also lah so other readers just skip this part. Anyway I feel deceived for like so long... (maybe just 1 or 2 weeks) but why must you hide or these and bottle it up? Do you not trust me or is it just that... well... I better not say... Only if i had my sound system on everytime i visit, I would have realised it earlier. So it's also my fault for not realising it earlier. I really don't know what to say or do. There are so many times I had to choose between should i adopt this option? what's going to happen if i did this or that? Am I really able to do that? etc... I really don'y know lah... I suppose I'm... well... Forget it... ARGH!!! My life's probably just worthless lah... I should never expect good things to happen to me and maybe i will not from now on. Why am I helping or more concerned about others when I'm not doing so for myself? Is it worthed?

I should probably be a loner again? just dunno what to do lah. Till now, there's only 1 friend who i can tell everything to but then he is in NS now... sometimes it's also that i don't really wish to say out cause accidents do happen... I really don't know who i am... why do i trust people easily and do not trust people easily? is it because I've been betrayed and being used for too many times? why when i try to get people's recognition, I end up being used while nothing ever happened to those who don't even need to try? Do we really reap what we sow? do we really get treated the way we treat others? (do what you want others to do onto you)
I remember that's the teachings back in PHS and Mrs Tan always tells us that. But then why do i not get back the same treatment? why do people make fun of others when they do not make fun of any other people? why do people become the topic of gossips when they do not gossip about others? Where's the true freedom and justice? Do the world need another great flood? Father, please guide me through and enlighten me. I know that I'm not a good Christian but I really want to ask for your forgiveness and help me with it.

Update

2007-10-20T00:19:00.000+08:00

Returned to school yesterday and just as I thought that I would have many free periods and will be able to leave school early, guess what?! the free periods are changed to basic language conversation lessons as well as reading period for GP. The best pert of it was yesterday nad today we had to do CIP. Not say doing CIP is bad but then there was no advance notice. I chose with my classmates to do the CIP in the evening and were told that we will be there to set up the place only...

Reached home early but had no access to the computer so went to watch TV. watched till i fell asleep. haha. woke up liao was worrying if I'll be late... luckily i wasn't of course... left house at around 4 cause it was going to rain. then toured Northpoint but still have no idea of what i wanted to buy. more of like i can't find what i want or i dunno what colour to choose. haha. 4.45 i left for the MRT station (gathering point)...

Reached our destination to find that all the tables etc were already set-up. so change of plans, we were to help escort the elderlies into the shelter. however, most of them rejected our offer and we had too many people around lah... so that means i was just standing in the rain without umbrella. then after that we went into the shelter and again not knowing what to do. then later my friend came and ask us to go over to help the elderlies who are going to the toilet (cause there's stairs) and so we went over... similarly, most of them rejected our help. there were a few of them who chatted with us. haha. in dialect somemore. i only know a bit so was mocked by Angeline. lol...

Then went out for dinner... and i was the last to finish... lol... we went back and were told to be escorts again but in the end the plan changed to we were there to transport the goody bags to the area where the buses were. after that, we had to carry rice up to 50kg. at first i could manage by on my 2nd or 3rd bag, i was told not to do it alone... lol... then later smaller packets of rice but then the packaging was so rough that my hand was like kena rope burn like that. then before getting more of other stuff, i heleped to shift the rice again and that definately 'ate' more of my strength. and luckily someone helped me witht the other stuff cause i was still busy helping to shift the rice. then in the end still had to carry many other stuff. my station was too filled that it used up the area of 3 stations. lol... maybe i carried too much stuff. only if i was in-charge of Eden's station, then i'll probably get more =P the instant noodles i could carry 4 boxes but at 1 point, i was blocked by 'traffic' for quite some time and my hand just gave way... felt so useless... those people could either help or at least like people carrying things to go first mah... my school's DM was helpful too though i don't really need the help lah... haha... and well, he asked me why carry so many heavy stuff. (other people were carrying sugar boxes 2 at a time but i was carrying 3 at a time. 1 box was heavy enough... most sugar boxes were deformed due to the weight of other sugar boxes... haha...)

after everything, both my hands were shaking... haha... but nevermind lah... treat it as training... it's a once a very long while then will have de training... haha... my class de people took photo with Mrs Ng and then later she offered us a ride to Northpoint. haha... so honoured... haha... (skip over whatever happened in mac) 4 of us were rushing to the MRT station leaving Angeline and I. accompanied her across the road only cause different path... haha... for some reason i just walked home. could have taken bus but just didn't... Very tired also... think that's all for now...

H2 subjects over!!!

2007-10-11T15:49:00.000+08:00

H2 Subjects are finally over... i have 99.99% confidence of passing Chemistry. 40% to get overall subpass for Math and 60% confidence of passing Physics.

Birthday during preparation for promos so didn't even get to have a proper celebration. actually I didn't really want to have grand celebration or what... same as usual lah, not many ppl remembers it (I don't think many ppl knows when it is)... haha... well, life still have to go on right? Thanks for the ppl who was there to accompany me through that dreadful day... haha...

Lazy to write on, will update more...

2007-09-14T13:15:00.000+08:00

You Are Oscar the Grouch

Grumpy and grouchy, you aren't just pessimistic. You revel in your pessimism.
You are usually feeling: Unhappy. Unless it's rainy outside, and even then you know the foul weather won't last.
You are famous for: Being mean yet loveable. And you hate the loveable part.
How you life your life: As a slob. But it's not repelling as many people as you'd like!

http://blogthings.com/thesesamestreetpersonalityquiz/">The Sesame Street Personality Quiz

Closed

2007-09-10T10:40:00.000+08:00

Blog closed till mid-October...

Update

2007-08-22T14:12:00.000+08:00

finally, an update... hmmm, start with national day eve ba... haiz.... the speeches were long and well, my medals were not given during that day... a very big thanks to Mr Lim for always doing so much for whichever CCA he's posted to... Air Pistol competition that day he treated us drinks and then after the parade he treated us drinks and gave us chocolate... perhaps it's just "make us feel that we'll need to do even more" but then dun look at things this way mah... maybe the intention is good but then why must people always think of it as there's another motive.

just recovered from fever and hmm... like got nothing much to talk abt... anyway, a song i heard recently made me thought of some stuff:

Part 1
why are there people out there who's making the lives of others miserable. what joy do they really gain from it? is it the laughter they can have when they embarass someone? or is it that they draw out joy by making and seeing others suffer? why on Earth do these type of people exist? Why can't everyone just live in harmony? why aren't people given the basic respect they should have? why do people just cut into other people's conversation before they are done with it? is that manners? why do you have to make their friends or other people feel that they are not worthed to befriend with? why do people have to give in to you? do you really treat them as friends or just your servants/slaves who you just order around? who gave you the right to do all these? who do you think you are? just having more support from people around does not give you the right to go around and do all these. please think about how it'll feel like if these were to befall upon you. think carefully before lying to yourself that "it's nothing what". perhaps you will really not understand how it feels cause you have not experienced it...

Part 2
when these people start doing all these acts, their victims keep silent. by keeping silent is perhaps another method of protesting against it but why? they probably dun want to embarass you back/create more trouble or hatred/make the situation worse. this however do not mean that they are fine with what you have been doing...
when people starts isolating the victim, the victim will have to go through it alone... happiness will perhaps be like a legend to him/her.
when the number of people who grows to dislike the victim increases, the number if people who he/she can still call friend decreases. loves becomes a burden but he/she can't seem to be able to dump the problem off...
the victim is not dumb(as in can't talk), he/she may have something to say, he just need something, something to boost his courage. perhaps wine or beer or just some alcoholic drinks? he/she too, have dreams to fulfil. when tomorrow comes and the sun rises, the sun rays shine on him/her, he/she can also shine...
even the silent will just breakdown and express his/her wrath... silence is also a form of energy source that pushes someone onwards...

killing someone because he killed, getting killed because you killed. when will peace ever come?
same thing here actually... perhaps someday the victim will go berserk and haunt you... you'll never know... well, Cheers to Peace...

Update

2007-08-06T09:47:00.000+08:00

haiz... very long never update liao... also dunno what to update abt cause the sequence of events are all mixed up in my mind... anyway, on the last wednesday of July, some of the Air Weapons Club went to play laser quest... Guess what, i topped the top ranking list of the day... woohooo... haha... that means, my score was the highest for that day... haha... interschool shoot's prizes were given on a thursday assembly instead of on college day... so sad lah... haiz... and erm, how am i supposed to keep it up when CCA training days had been reduced to 1 day per week? moreover, every cca needs to do a CIP project... think i'll be drained out... need to check the schedule again... think i'm out of it le... need to get back on track... haiz...

I finally got a 'A' for math... but then again, that's 1 of my better topic lah... chem got 'E'... at first was unexpected but after the test and thinking through, i made a lot of careless mistakes... haiz... at least it's still a pass... having problems with circular motion onwards as well as implicit differentiation... geog also... the stuff seem so unfamiliar... haiz... think i'll stop here and update again another time... adios...

Onna no ko, Otoko no ko -- Ogura Yuuko

2007-07-31T22:07:00.001+08:00

lol... she's acting like Tenma Chan... or is it that she's like that?

Fields of Hope (ENGLISH)

2007-07-16T22:02:00.001+08:00

Field of Hope (English)

Fields of Hope (English) lyrics

2007-07-16T20:56:00.000+08:00

Beneath the veil of starry sky
As cold as winters darkest night
It’s there you’ll sleep, silent in me
You're all alone

A single prayers soft melody
Has crossed the lonely silent fields
A little light begins to shine, it shines on and on

I watched you as you so peacefully dreamed
You laughed like a child, happy and care free
It’s so familiar and yet so far, that the future is promised
For you and me

One day on a green and shining morn
One day we will finally make it through
'Cause in this sky, so dark with winter
We still have to believe that it’s true
Fields of hope
Fields of hope
Fields of hope

http://www.fantasykat.com/ch/hl/lacus.html

Update (Finally!!!)

2007-07-08T14:06:00.000+08:00

Block test finally over... didn't really prepare myself well for block test... as from my results, i should "wake up" and start intensive mugging... haha... during math paper, i actually blanked out... as in i forgot all formulae right at the start... i didn't even remember to use the formulae booklet... knew that i would flunk while doing the paper... GP was no better... out of the 12 questions, there was none that i was able to do and Mr Ganesh told us that there will be at least 1 question on environment and it turned out to be none... so i just chose whichever i think i could do... halfway while writing, i ran out of points so i changed to another question... wrote less than 600 i think but at least more than the minimum of 500 words... well, the only 3 people (including me) did the question i did... it certainly demoralised me... well paper 2 was a lot worse... i didn't understand the questions and neither was i able to grasp the essence of the passage... sad to say, i think i'll get 'U' for GP... Physics is another sad case... the front parts were quite easy for me and according to Kenneth, there was 1 question which i got 10/10 =D... i supposed its on Kinematics cause that's what i usually score in and it was taught by Mr Leong during bridging last year... but nevertheless, i was still not very good at resolving vectors especially for forces and moments... got 'S' grade... what to expect when i didn't do about 20 marks worthed of questions? the upthrust question wasted a lot of my time and the teacher told me to "just use whatever is given" and it turned out to be question error... (wonder why no one else asked) kenneth told me that by using any, i'll still get 1 mark.. but 1 mark can't help me pass... but looking at the larger picture, i'll be like .35 marks for overall final year grade... Chemistry was the most saddening case... i thought i could get an 'A' but i got 'C'... 1 more mark to 'B' but i still can't source that out... haiz... Geography was taken in the new seminar room... the venue was so hot that i couldn't even force myself to start writing when we were supposed to begin... some of us were busy cooling ourselves than writing... lol... a trip to the washroom during the paper made me realised that 1 of the cooling thingy was not on and it's probably my test venue... (the air from the air conditioner was warm...) the questions all looked so familiar yet i was unable to get myself off the heat... i think i'll get at most a 'S' grade...

Rest and Relax after block test? No!!! preparation for nationals school shoot... same old routine everyday except for weekends and monday.) well, monday was rest and relax day cause the range is closed every monday... and as it's also youth day, some of us went to Eric's house... (for more info, visit the other's blogs... i'm too lazy to elaborate... =P)

I will never give out flyers unless really needed from now on... had a very bad experience... can ask Kenneth... *sigh*

Somehow i still can't improve on major problem i encounter during all my shoots... my shots still tend to shift towards the left and i'm always unable to aim back the same spot... i always aim either too high or too low...

Shouldn't have listened to Kenneth and went to help the rifle girls... the wait caused me to become more mentally unstable... well, i just can't sit still and stone... but nevertheless, at least i helped to make things better cause of some miscommunications... we were given wrong detailing information and we became panicky... at least my brute strength came in useful when transporting the equipments to the range... Yu Jo was supposed to be 1st detail instead of Nataline and we were left like 8 minutes of so before the event starts... it was so chaotic for us... our school's shooters probably were mentally affected... their scores were like far from their usual best score...

and my event started at 10+... i wasn't 'mentally stable' and i just couldn't focus somehow... i don't even know why i'm so nervous... it never happened before in my previous competitions... i didn't feel as nervous at my very first competition (Singapore Opens) my hands were shaking and i couldn't control myself... i tried to talk to myself to calm myself down but it still didn't work... i had a 6 in every series or at least for 5 series... and a 3 or 4 for a misfire cause my hand was shaking... my sighting shots were marvellous and i was about to begin... as i always had an off shot for my first competition shot, i tried by using a sighting card... true enough, i got a 7... 2nd shot, another 7... ("what the, i have to sight again?" was what i told myself) but 3rd shot was a 10... after trying a few more shots, i got 7s and 10s... but i didn't care and just started... around my 30th shot, coach came and told me to slow down and do some dry fire... after getting the feeling back then start off again... i guess i was really fast... i did accordingly and after a few shots, i rushed again... then i tried calming myself down... at least it was better than the start... I was quite slow to use my "special move"... this "special move" allows me to have better concentration, strength, endurance, mentallity etc... however, this "special move" has it's time limit... the effect will become weaker after some time and i'll need to "cast" it again... sounds childish but it's true... my last few series was better because of my "special move"... it happened for most of the time except for the time when i first started to use in (training)... think i'll carry on training and prolong the effect to at least 2hours... haha... Coach Song told me all my problems (i expected cause i myself know) and told me how improve on it... his encouragements motivated me and he even told me to concentrate on studies and train more only when i have free time... in the end i scored 535/600 and was national 5th and zonal 1st =D... although i didn't get any award, i knew very well that i didn't really give my best... hope i'll do better next year... i'll probably go for more monthly shoot... Some unhappy events here and there... that's it...

Went for PHS Honour's night after changing... took taxi cause i didn't want to be late... cost me $7.50... and everything started at 8+... haiz... i could have just taken the MRT... NP 2 and NCC 6... BB no comments... lol... we were indeed different entities... both sides didn't really talk to the other table much... our table was the nosiest and quite rude actually... especially chocolate... haha... meal was supposed to be self-service and we basically waited till the queue was quite short... haha... we're not like some people... haha... SC people some very weird... especially the 1 who keep coming over and asked "do you all want more drinks?" well, i took 1 cup and poured the fluid into my cup then return the unused 1... quite stupid but then, save the Earth!!! then some other things which i don't want to mention here but luckily Wilson did see what i saw and took action... well he was nearer to the scene than i was and he knew more of the people around... think i'll stop here and sry for the long post and late update... do remember to tag =D

=D

2007-06-20T16:12:00.000+08:00

Finally!!! i managed to break my own record and acheive an average of at least 90/100... (got 91/100)... hope that this is not temporary...

Somethings still wrong with the weapon i'm using... dunno why the sight always varies... the NUS shoot also like that... then didn't do well that time... hope that this problem can be eliminated soon...

Friday we had a finals' trial... test out only... (maybe it was thursday)... anyway, i didn't do well again cause of the above mentioned problem... haiz... how demoralising...

Saturday: went back to PHS to take charge of CPL promotion test... (i'll not say too much abt it... confidential... =P)
went bbq with the others later on cause we already booked the pit... i was late cause of some stuff... then they asked me to buy quite a lot of stuff which in the end we didn't use... i had to carry the 4KG charcoal from Tampines all the way lah... then at the MRT, there was this lady who did not give way for me (we were on opposite direction) despite the fact that i was carrying such bulky items... the first thing that came to me was: "Singaporeans should change their attitude... what if i'm an elderly or something or i'm pushing a pram?"
reach Bedok le still have to wait for Kenneth for a very very long time... the flowers also wither le lah... then when he reach, he still asked me to go buy more stuff... my poor arm... then after that, we took bus over to our final destination...
BUT!!! that's not all... after alighting, we had to travel quite some distance... the over head bridge was so long that the other end looks so near yet, it seems so far away... there's no stairs either... no short-cut!!!
Didn't really prepare much activities but Shu Juan bought Sparkles... we even formed a heart shape and attepmted to light all asap at the same time... think it didn't really work if i'm not wrong...
we played some other games later and the loser had to eat some food... the Mr Lim very lucky lah... kept winning... it's like the opposite of Simin... (oops... =P) 2 times drew 4 cards that is either 11 or less... the total confirm won't be more than 21... then when he's the dealer even worse... straight away black-jack... think i'll die from too much carbon... enjoyed it anyway... haha...
took Coach Lim's car to Eunos MRT to change to Taxi... Her car is so nice lah... it's like a child's paradise... haha... got a Squirtle Plushie >.< the light is blue somemore lor (i think)... then Coach initiated by asking some questions abt the new weapon etc... then she showed us her housing area which was somewhere near where we had our bbq... best thing that happened was that i managed to change my friday training to thursday... then i can go NP le... *YAY!!!* XD
had 4 of us sharing cab and it was very difficult to get 1 cause most cab are either ending service or switching shift... i decided to drop off together with Hong Seng then walk back home... save $ mah... haha... reached home at abt 12midnight...

Today the Maple GM forgot to terminate the 2x drop rate and exp lah... haha... then heard that some "Stupid" fellow go alert the GM abt it then GM off the thingy... haha... didn't shoot and the firing line cause my hands are very "Sour"... saved $4... next training in the morning...

Talked to Wei Xin on the phone for like 30min or so... die liao... phone bill sure ex 1... the other time we conference already used up dunno how much outgoing... even exceeded i think...

Will update another time... perhaps after block test... all the best to all who's having test and those who are not having test. =D

Pirates of the "Currybean"

2007-06-12T14:23:00.000+08:00

Extra lessons this week... didn't need to go for gp and i actually forgot to inform kenneth abt it... haiz... then i didn't remember that geog tutorial was changed to lecture so again, i didn't have my lecture notes again...
finished my math tutorial but i forgot to hand in lah... then went to get some stuff with Eric they all for tomorrow... actually it's just look around... didn't do much... haha... then met up with Simin and Hui Feng to travel to Cineleisure to watch Pirates (We saw Winnie also... felt bad that we "abandoned her" ... but there wasn't any seats left for the time slot we wanted so we decided to go Bishan J8 instead... Finally got to use the free ticket... then i was like the only 1 who bought snacks from GV lah... but it doesn't matter... should have gotten sweet(popcorn) only... haha... the salted de didn't really stand out and the sweet 1 wasn't a lot i think... got nachos also... wonder why some of them like dun really want... maybe they too shy or something... actually i feel bad for disrupting them in the middle of the movie... some parts were quite boring but overall, it's good lah... haha... at least the sound wasn't too loud... haha...
After the movie, i took the rubbish to the back to throw since the employees were there... didn't realise that there was a bin in front... haiz... we didn't eat dinner together cause we had to rush home... i didn't mind actually... getting home earlier or later makes no difference... then we parted with Zhe Xuan and Daniel taking bus (from bus interchange is think) then Jia Quan was taking train but opposite direction from me then Simin and Hui Feng will be taking bus. Simin's route will will be dark and of course dangerous lah... She did ask Jia Quan to take same route but he didn't want... i felt like offering to send her home but then how am i going to voice out? might be weird right? a bit bu shun lu mah... but i'll still be able to reach home by 854... then i asked in the end through sms and she said she'll be taking train instead cause it's safer... *Stupid Me!!!* then i thought she might be on her way walking to the MRT station so I asked if she wants to meet up... when i got her reply, she had already got onto the train and the train left lah... Think i'm probably slower than Zhe Xuan...called instead cause it's easier and a better way... So we did meet lah... a bit like those ou xiang ju you know? the male and female lead always almost meet but then dun have... haha... just kidding lah... imagine how good it is if life can be like in drama... then we can plan whatever we want to have happening to happen... haha... of course that's not possible lah... Should have asked if she got home safely at like 9+ instead of 10.30 lah... so late le... probably slept cause it had been a long day today especially when they had physics straight for 3~4 hours... then movie... haiz... hope she's fine and sound asleep. I'll probably won't get any reply back anyway... haha... i still worry about stuff a lot... dunno why...

I'm stupid enough to get myself into the same trouble everytime lah... it's like i'll get into it just as soon as i'm free from it... what am i suppose to do??? haiz... sometimes i feel i'm more like a tool than a person lah... haiz... anyway, i'll update only when i'm free cause i'll be having intensive competition training from tomorrow onwards and block test is coming soon... haiz... *sigh*

Presentation tomorrow and i have not prepared for it at all lah... haiz... sianz also...

Anyway, good luck to all for your block test and do remember to take care of your health. :)